The Passion and Death of our Lord Jesus Christ, as Visioned and Narrated by Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann) Van Hoof--1950-1974-- (full title)

1. THE PASSION
AND DEATH OF OUR LORD
JESUS CHRIST
AS VISIONED AND NARRATED BY
MRS. FRED (MARY ANN) VAN HOOF-1950-1974

2. THE PASSION
AND DEATH OF OUR LORD
JESUS CHRIST
AS VISIONED AND NARRATED BY
MRS. FRED (MARY ANN) VAN HOOF-1950-1974

3. Published for the Honor and Glory of God in
obedience to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
Compiled, edited and published by the "Queen of the
Holy Rosary Mediatrix of Peace Shrine."
FOR MY GOD AND MY COUNTRY, INC.
Necedah, Wis. 54646
FIRST PRINTING
Copyright © 1975. All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced in any
part without permission from the publisher.
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4. GOOD FRIDAY CRUCIFIX
On Good Friday, April 7, 1950 at about 11:00 P.M. Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann) Van
Hoofnoticed that the crucifix on the wall had a strange glow to it and that the cor­
pus WiiS twice its regular size. At the appearance to Mary Ann on June 16, 1950,
the Blessed Mother spoke to her saying, "My dear child take the Good Friday
Crucifix (meaning the crucifix which was aglow on Good Friday), and bless them
with it while saying the prayers of the sign of the cross." She also said "To build a
shrine of prayer at the spot of the apparition and erect a large crucifix on the vil­
lage bluff, so that the people may be reminded daily of the Way of the Cross, and
that this example may be followed by other communities."
On August 15, 1950, Our Holy Mother said to Mary Ann: "Bless the people with
the Good Friday Crucifix. This blessing is from Me."
This book is hereby dedicated to Mrs. Van Hoof for offering herself as a Vi£!Lm
Soul and to fulfill the mission Our Blessed Mother hasrequested of her. Also to
Fred her husband and their children for their being willing to accept the persecu­
tion over these past twenty-five years.
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5. TABLE OF CONTENTS
INTRODUCTION ., IX
Our Lord And His Holy Mother Share The Salvation of Mankind .. XIX
1. OUR LORD INSTRUCTS HIS HOLY MOTHER AND BIDS
HER FAREWELL. 21
2. OUR LORD LEAVES TO FULFILL THE WILL OF HIS FATHER
IN HEAVEN 22
3. OUR LORD UNDERSTANDS AND ACCEPTS OUR HOLY
MOTHER'S WISHES 23
4. THE UPPER ROOM 24
5. OUR LORD INSTRUCTS THE MEN 25
6. OUR HOLY MOTHER INSTRUCTS THE WOMEN 26
7. PREPARATION IN THE LOWER CHAMBER 26
8. OUR LORD SLAUGHTERS THE LAMBS 27
9. OUR LORD MARKS SYMBOLS IN BLOOD OVER DOORS,
WINDOWS, ETC. 30
10. THE GREAT MYSTERY AND PERPETUATION OF THE
REDEMPTION OF MAN 31
11. OUR LORD GIVES INDIVIDUAL INSTRUCTIONS TO
THE APOSTLES 3i
12. A SPECIAL TABLE IS BEiNG PREPARED - THE LAST SUPPER. 32
i3. PREPARED LAMBS BROUGHT TO VARIOUS TABLES 33
14. OUR LORD AND THE APOSTLES TAKE THEIR PLACES AT
THE TABLE 34
is. OUR LORD AND THE APOSTLE DIP THEIR FINGERS
IN A DISH 36
16. OUR LORD WASHES THE FEET OF THE APOSTLES 37
i7. THE BLESSED MOTHER AND THE HOLY WOMEN IN
THE CENACLE 38
18. PREPARATION FOR THE FIRST MASS 39
19. OUR HOLY MOTHER VISIONS THE ROOM BELOW 4i
20. OUR LORD INSTITUTES THE HOLY SACRIFICE OF
THE MASS 42
21. CONSECRATION OF THE BREAD - TRANSUBSTANTIATION 42
22. CONSECRATION OF THE WINE - TRANSUBSTANTIATION 45
23. ANGELS TAKE THE SACRED SPECIES TO OUR
HOLY MOTHER 46
24. APOSTLES RECEIVE THE SACRED SPECIES 47
25. TRUE WORDS OF CONSECRATION .48
26. OUR LORD AND THE APOSTLES ENTER THE GARDEN 51
27. BETRAYAL· THIRTY PIECES OF SILVER 51
28. THE AGONY IN THE GARDEN 52
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6. 29. APOSTLES ASLEEP 53
30. OUR LORD VISIONS HIS MOTHER 53
31. A LIGHT! OUR BLESSED MOTHER VISIONS HER SON 55
32. BACK TO OUR LORD 55
33. APOSTLES STILL ASLEEP 56
34. OUR HOLY MOTHER IS WEIGHED DOWN WITH GRIEF
AND SORROW 56
35. THE ROCK 56
36. OUR LORD VISIONS THE SINS OF THE WORLD 57
37. COULD YOU NOT THEN WATCH ONE HOUR WITH ME 57
38. A LIGHT GIVES HIM STRENGTH 59
39. APOSTLES SLUMBER ON 59
40. OUR HOLY MOTHER AGAIN VISIONS HER SON 60
41. TODAYS APOSTLES AND CHRISTIANS ASLEEP 60
42. OUR LORD SWEATS BLOOD 60
43. ANGEL HOLDS CHALICE 61
44. APOSTLES AWAKEN 63
45. THE BETRAYAL. 63
46. THE BETRAYER KISSES OUR LORD 64
47. APOSTLE CUTS OFF EAR 65
48. OUR LORD IS TIED WITH A ROPE 65
49. NAKEDNESS, YOUNG MAN STRIPPED OF GARMENTS 66
50. OUR LORD IS TAKEN FROM THE GARDEN 66
51. FIRST HIGH PRIEST OR COUNCILOR 67
52. SECOND HIGH PRIEST OR OFFICIAL. 68
53. OUR LORD TREATED AS A CRIMINAL. 69
54. MOCK CROWNING 69
55. THE HOLY SACRIFICE OF THE MASS IS SACRED 70
56. FIRST DENtAL. 70
57. SECOND DENIAL. 71
58. THIRD DENIAL. 72
59. DUNGEON 72
60. A LIGHT SHINES ON OUR LORD 74
61. BREAK OF DAWN 75
62. EVIL ONE WITH COUNCILORS 75
63. HIGH PRIEST OR GOVERNOR 77
64. HIGH OFFICAL OR RULER 80
65. OUR LORD'S HEAD COVERED WITH A WHITE SACK 80
66. RAY OF LIGHT FROM OUR HOLY MOTHER TO OUR LORD.. 81
67. CRU. CRU, CRUCiFy 81
68. BACK TO HIGH PRIEST OR DIGNITARy 82
69. PI LATE'S SPOUSE PLEADS FOR OUR LORD 82
70. THE DARK, THE EVIL ONE 84
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7. 71. PILATE'S SPOUSE PLEADS AGAIN 84
72. OUR HOLY MOTHER HEARS PI LATE'S DECISION TO HAVE
OUR LORD SCOURGED 85
73. THE EVIL ONE URGES THE TORMENTORS ON 87
74. STRIPPING OF HIS GARMENTS - OUR HOLY MOTHER
INTERCEDES FOR THE LOIN CLOTH 87
75. OUR LORD TIED TO THE PILLAR 88
76. THE SCOURGING - FIRST SCOURGERS 88
77. SECOND SCOURGERS 90
78. THIRD SCOURGERS 90
79. EVIL ONE REALIZES HIS MISTAKE 91
80. OUR HOLY MOTHER SHARES HIS SUFFERING 91
81. THE MOCK CROWNING 93
82. THE EVIL ONE TRIES TO RETURN THE COINS 93
83. OUR LORD IS CROWNED WITH THORNS 95
84. A PURPLE CLOAK 95
85. ECCE HOMO - BEHOLD THE MAN 97
86. HIGH OFFICIAL'S SPOUSE AGAIN PLEADS FOR OUR LORD.. 97
87. RELEASE OF PRISONER 98
88. OUR LORD PRAYS CONSTANTLy 98
89. HIG H OFFICIAL WASHES HIS HANDS 98
90. FIRST STATION - CONDEMNED 99
91. RE-CROWNING 99
92. THE CROSS. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. 99
93. SECOND STATION - OUR LORD ACCEPTS THE CROSS 101
94. THE THIEVES 101
95. RIDER ON WHITE HORSE 103
96. THIRD STATION - OUR LORD FALLS UNDER THE WEIGHT
OF THE CROSS 103
97. FOURTH STATION - OUR LORD MEETS HIS
AFFLICTED MOTHER ' 105
98. FIFTH STATION - A LARGE MAN IS FORCED TO HELP
CHRIST CARRY THE CROSS 109
99. SIXTH STATION - OUR LORD GIVES TO VERONICA AN
IMAGE OF HIS HOLY FACE III
lOO. OUR LORD HAS REWARDED HER 112
101. SEVENTH STATION - OUR LORD FALLS AGAIN BENEATH
THE WEIGHT OF THE CROSS 114
102. EIG HTH STATION - OUR LORD LOOKS WITH
COMPASSION ON THE WEEPING WOMEN 114
103. NINTH STATION - OUR LORD FALLS FACE DOWN UNDER
THE CROSS 117
104. CALVARY 120
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8. 105. TENTH STATION - STRIPPING OF HIS GARMENTS,
MEASURING THE CROSS 121
106. RE-CROWNING 122
107. CASTING LOTS 122
108. OUR HOLY MOTHER AGAIN INTERCEDES FOR THE
LOIN CLOTH 124
109. ELEVENTH STATION - OUR LORD IS NAILED TO
THE CROSS 125
110. PLANTING THE TREE 128
I I I. DEUS, DEUS, DEUS 129
112. OUR LORD SPEAKS TO THE THIEF ON HIS RIGHT 131
113. OUR LORD GIVES US HIS HOLY MOTHER 134
114. ANGELS ARE CATCHING THE BLOOD IN A CHALICE 135
115. FOREIGN WORDS 135
116. SITIO 137
117. TWELFTH STATION - OUR LORD DIES ON THE CROSS 138
118. OUR LORDS BODY IS PIERCED WITH A LANCE 140
119. THIRTEENTH STATION - THE BODY OF OUR LORD IS
TAKEN DOWN FROM THE CROSS 141
120. THE BODY OF OUR LORD IS PLACED IN THE ARMS OF HIS
HOLY MOTHER 142
12I. OUR LORD'S BODY IS WRAPPED IN A LINEN CLOTH 143
122. THE BODY OF OUR LORD IS CARRIED IN PROCESSION
TO THE TOMB 145
123. FOURTEENTH STATION - THE BODY OF OUR LORD IS
PLACED IN THE TOMB 145
EXPLANATION OF SYMBOLS 149
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9. SEVEN SORROWS OF OUR SORROWFUL MOTHER

10. INTRODUCTION
During the October 7, 1950 Apparition of the Blessed Virgin
Mary to Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann) Van Hoof, Our Lady spoke to her
about a final penance. She said, "My child, (here She smiled so
beautiful, or I believe after what followed I would have been
scared), after November 12th, your Penance~yFriday
~il Ch~as~againin ~~J1t. This suffering will be great and
at times will last over Sunday." She also told me to hold up the
Good Friday Crucifix and also my Rosary, which She touched with
the Crucifix of Her Rosary.
On Novem ber 12, 1950, the Blessed Mother said to Mrs. Fred
(Mary Ann) Van Hoof, (see Vol. I of4 Vols. "My Work With Nece­
dah" by H. Swan, page 59.) "Your Penance for yo~r community
starts Friday for five Fridays Saturdays and un days. There wlffbe
suffering of the Wounds of My Son, Thy Lord. There will be bodily
harm done to you, you must be careful. Satan is very angry, angrier
than ever before, as you have bent many knees in prayer."
It was not clear to Mary Ann at the time that this meant she
would suffer the Passion of Our Lord through the many years
ahead on each of the Fridays of Advent and Lent.
To those privilegedtobe present it wi~never-to-be-for­
gotten spiritual experience, a life-time inspiration. Also a fuller un­
derstanding and deeper appreciation of the great and tremendous
sacrifice that Our Lord and God made so mankind could once
again have the opportunity to enjoy the eternal happiness of Heav­
en. At various times before and after her suffering of the Passion,
important messages were given ;oncer~ingth~ork~ the needfor
unity, prayer and sacrifice iYWe were to save our Country, Church,
Youth, etc., stress being placed always on the necessity of the Rosa­
ry and the Constant Vigil of Prayer.
The basic purpose here and all other places where She has ap­
peared is the need to save souls.
For the people present, some for the first time, most felt they had
a better understanding of the meaning and purpose of Our Lord's
suffering. Also the great love that Christ had for us, and His com­
plete obedience to God the Father, as He willingly accepted all the
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11. pain and suffering that went with the Scourging, Crowning, Carry­
ing of the Cross, and His Death on Calvary. .
As we know the Sacred Sacrifice of the Mass is a continuation of
Our Lord's Sacrifice and Death and when instituting It, Christ
meant to give all the opportunity to share in the great Graces He
won for us along with the privilege of sharing His Divinity as He
shared our humanity. This to be each time we receive Him into our
heart and soul in Holy Communion. A plan, so unique and merito­
rious could only have been devised in Heaven by God the Father,
the Son and the Holy Ghost. A greater recognition and apprecia­
tion by everyone is only proper when one considers that it was Our
Lord Who took it upon Himself to make atonement for our sins.
Likewise that He deserves and expects our cooperation if we hope
to share in the "Glory of Glories." As He expressed it, "Unless you
likewise do penance you shall all perish," "Pick up your cross and
follow Me," "The servant is no better than the Master," etc.
Human nature no doubt will always be perverse and the tempta­
tions of Satan cause man to fall from his dignity of "A Being,"
created just a little less than the angels. Also that ~ attractipn of
material things will continue to divert man's attention from the
higher and'nobler purpose of life. So, God in His Wisdom and
Mercy has seen fit to choose certain sRecial friends who would also
suffer Our Lord's Passion in reparation for some of the many of­
fenses against Him.
To help you and other sincere, good people properly identify and
respect these chosen Victim Souls, or Stigmatics.some or all of His
Wounds,1iaVe-been given to them.
Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann) Van Hoof is one of those referred to
above. She has suffered th ssion of Our Lord as the Blessed
Mother saTd sheWould on the Fridays of Advent and Lent since
19~. The usual time, twelve noon until tnree P.M., with the excep­
tion Holy Thursday and Good Friday of 1960,1961,1962 and 1963.
Then the suffering started on Holy Thursday night at 9:00 P.M. and
continued until 12:00 midnight, when Our Lord was in the dun­
geon. It started again on Good Friday morning at 9:00 A.M. when
Christ left the dungeon, finishing when Our Lord expired on the
Cross at 3:00 P.M.
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12. The Stigmata of the Thorn Wounds of Our Lord were present
during Lent in the years of 1951 and 1952.
Regarding the reference to Calvary and the Holy Sacrifice of the
Mass as being one and the same, see the October 7, 1950 Message,
quote, "To all Priests: Don't be in a hurry to say your Mass: take
your time. Remember the Lord hung on the Cross three hours in
agony. Live the Way of the Cross. My Son was crucified here (at
this point, Mrs. Van Hoof held up the Good Friday Crucifix) for
your sins, but you forget it. My Son was scourged at the pillar-the
blood coming down. His precious blood was all over, but you forget
it. The Amighty Dollar is your God. Forget the Almighty Dollar.
and remember this Cross with the Crucifixion of Your Lord upon
it. He died for you, now remember Him."
The question in the minds of some people and Mary Ann's was,
( ~Y' the Blessed Mother chosen her? The answer was made
' clear to all by the Blessed Virgin Mary on May 30, 1950 when She
I said, "From childhood on, until today, the Stations of the Cross
J have made your heart heavy, and you shed tears because my Son's
sufferings grieve you. This is why I chose you, my Child." WJ!!:ut
family to care for an<!-illimes in oor heal!lt Mrs. Van Hoof real-
I ized that tn~uld be a most difficult mission, yet she said when
II one looks into the eyes of Our Blessed Lady you cannot refuse Her
anything.
From various messages given for over twenty years it is clear that
sin is the main cause of war and that it can only be stopped through
prayer, penance and reparation. True, some have heeded the re-
quests of Our Holy Mother and have made a most sincere effort to
carry them out. However, the sins today are so malicious and wide-
spread that it would take an all out united effort of all religions and
"' ~s ecially the Christia~to hold back, shorten th~ dura!i.Qn and
I lessen the~ty of the Divine Chastisement. This is already in ef-
fect and evident in thestOims, floods, earthquakes, famines, torna-
does, etc., that have struck parts of our and other countries. Consid-
( er for a moment just the one crime of more than two million abor-
)J!~S that cry to Heaven for vengeance. Also the immorality, porno-
) graphy, drugs and dope that add to them that could only bring the
( wrath of God down on our nation. Yes, the sufferin and hardship
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13. ( w~be as never before in the hi~t~ry of our country. The warnings
, are clear and a review of the public messages to our nation given in
1950 leave no excuse for anyone that we were not told, or that we
did not have time to prevent this horrible suffering and devastation
of our beautiful America.
Our first concern then must be unity between Home, School and
Church, with the Rosary and the Constant Vigil of Prayer a must
for all if we wish to save Ourselves and Our Country. The Jen
Q?_~ment~ust_again the rule of life and the many Satan-
be
ic ways of living and dress be stopped at once.
Hope, yes there is always hope, when people turn their minds
and hearts back to God. For evidence in our times we have the story
of Austria, later Brazil in 1964 and Chile in 1973.
For a complete account of Mary Ann's personal story of the Suf-
fering of the Passion of Our Lord and other sufferings endured
through the years, see Vo!. I of the 4 Vols., "My Work with
Necedah", by H. Swan.
------ The following excerpts are from the accounts of good priests and
reliable doctors who were at the bedside of Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann)
Van Hoof when she suffered Our Lord's Passion.
0:Y R~y:-Leo~. Scheetz, Earl Park, Indiana, states, (see Vo!. 2, page
167 of the 4 volumes, "My Work With Necedah, by Henry Swan)
February 16, 1951, "The above statements are merely a brief ac-
count of what actually took place as I took notes at the time things
were happening. There has been no attempt to establish nor to
dramatize what I saw, nor to read anything into the actions and ago-
nies as they transpired. If one were to witness wh~t I saw_Mary ~n
Y.. an Ho<?~go throughJrom tweh'e to t~ree at someone's death b~d
) it would frighten them sick, but knowing that this was but the sev-
'(I enth reoccurrance of the similar thing, one could rest secure that
she was not about to die; otherwise, it would have been too much to
take. There remains for her to state what she saw and went through
visually or mentally during that time in order to give meaning to so
much apparent agony, pain, and what not."
o 1 ~ r. J. K. Spurlock, March 16, 1951: "The sight that we saw was
too magnetic to look away, it seemed to draw everyone of our senses
and strain every nerve and muscle. After standing for half an hour
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14. my knees were breaking. At the first sight of her sufferings my
breath was taken away, and a dull pressure seemed to grip my
heart. The expression of her sorrow seemed to tear one's chest
apart, and the thought that came first to me was: Oh, how horrible
was Our Lord's suffering. It hurt to watch it.
I have read many times of the sufferings of privileged people,
like Therese Neumann, etc., but never before did realize what it ac­
tually meant. I do not know if these others are like this or not, but
this is certainly genuine and real.
, Only the week before I had seen the slides and heard the lecture
on the Holy Shroud of Turin. That was still fresh in my mind, so I
( noticed how closely her position represented that which the scien­
tists tell us is depicted by the Shroud. Her arms were outstretched at
the same angle as we see in the Shroud reproduction of the Cross.
, They are very rigid, her whole body is rigid and cannot be moved
without moving it all at once.
I thought again of the Shroud of Turin and the explanation of the
scientists who tell us how Our Lord's chest was pushed down by His
weight so that He literally died of a broken heart. She held this posi­
tion for three hours. Her throat was throbbing, at times gasping and
speaking, at other times almost like a death rattle. Several times
panting as if her breath would tear her apart, then again long la­
bored breathing like a person drawing their last breath. Sometimes
she seemed exhausted and lay back in quiet suffering, and one
could see and feel the pain growing and growing until it final1y
would swell up into one sudden outburst of agony. Her head would
roll or she would strain at the nails.
The doctors said she did not speak as much this time but seemed
to suffer more. The words were filled with sadness, like the repeti­
tion several times of the sounds: "Osee" or "Jose" said twice, and
then followed by other words. Once it seemed to me she said,
"Deos, Deos" or "Theos" but I am not sure. There did not seem to
be any Latin. But they were real words with real inflections.
In my opinion these three hours suffering of Mrs. Van Hoof can­
not be explained in any natural way. To me it was more convincing
and impressive than even the moving of the sun. More convincing I
think for the ordinary observer because it can be checked and re-
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15. checked, and there is no chance of illusion. Or. De Werth said it
was not hypnotism. That in my opinion would be impossible in this
case. I am convinced of the supernatural cause. Until an official
statement is made, however, we can only hold our own private
opinions."
) Rev. F. B. I?ickman, Wedron, Illinois, May 1970: "Mary Ann
has suffered the Passion of Our Lord on the Fridays of Advent and
Lent since 1950. I have been present at several of these. She also
suffered for several years during the night hours. In fact almost
every day of her life since 1950 has been one of suffering. There
I never has been a time in the Church when so many visions of the
l Blessed Mother and Saints, and so many revelations have contin­
) ued for so many years. I have never heard Mary Ann utter a word
that in the slightest degree was contrary to any thing in our Faith.
I Never have I heard her use any language that showed an unsound
mental condition."
') - The following is an experience related by Mr. H. Swan after her
family doctor, Or. Meyers, had given Mary Ann some special medi ­
cation. It is taken from Vol. 2 of the four Volumes by 1:1. Swan,
pages 75-76. Mr. Swan was her protector and present during her
suffering periods including the times she suffered the Passion. "The
suffering was very, very severe on the 18th of ~ne, and shortly after
it started we called out for prayers. Betty Wakershauser was out in a
car praying, and was called to do the phoning. At a little after 10:00
P. M., Or. Meyers and Father Connolly were called and both ar­
rived shortly thereafter. Father Connolly prayed over Mary Ann
and gave her his Blessing. The heart condition seemed to get better,
and then physical suffering with its violent action started.
Dr. Meyers wanted to know if he could give her a hypo and I gave
my consent, although I had no faith in its effect. Doc gave her the
shot and for all the relief of pain it gave her, it might as well have
been water. It did however, after about 20 minutes or so make her
violently ill, and caused her to gag and throw up. There was no nor­
mal reaction to the shot whatever. Father Connolly and Doc after
staying until about 11 :30 P. M. left for home. I believe, however,
that it was good for both of them to witness her suffering.
Also Or. Meyers had given Mary Ann medicine to reduce the
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16. swelling in her limbs but this also did not have the result that would
normally be expected. He also tried shots but received the same re­
sults.
, A Message that was given on June 21, 1955, stated: "Henry,
many tests have been given and more will be given. That was a test
that was permitted to be given the other night. It was given to con­
'~ vince the docto~nd y~t medication does iiO'iWorCThis type
. of injection is very hard on the Victim and it will take three days for
. her to recover from it." 'Other tests will be given. You must be pres­
ent when the tests are given and your permission will be necessary'.
Mary Ann suffered much during these three days, there was
much gagging and retching. At the end of the third day it was all
over."
CV - Dr. John De Werth, Menomonee Falls, Wisconsin, March 16,
1951 :
Dr. De Werth gives a most complete and accurate description on
the above date from a medical standpoint, almost minute by min ­
ute, of the suffering of Mary Ann from 12 noon to 3:00 P.M. For his
full account see pages 272-279 Vo. 2 of 4 Vols., "My Work With
Necedah," by H. Swan. It also includes the Revelations that were
given from 2:43 to 2:53 P.M. Likewise he refers to real words with
definite inflections similar to the reference in the report by Msgr.
Spurlock.
Some additional interesting facts re: certain happenings during
the suffering of the Passion of Our Lord by Mrs. Van Hoof:
I. She would go for the full period of Advent as well as the
forty days of Lent without eating any solid foods, yet -on
Christmas Day or Easter Sundayshe was able to eat a full
meal without any ill effects.
2. Anna Katharina Emmerick, a mystic who lived from 1774
to 1824 is and has beenWith Mary Ann during the suffering
of the Passion and has been especially helpful when Reve­
lations or Messages were given and were not fully under­
stood. In other words when Czar Alex spoke in German,
she would give the correct interpretation in English.
3. On December 5, 1958, a request was made from the Celes­
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17. tials in Heaven to_~btain a four foot white corpus of Our
Lorq, and have it readyTor the December 12, 1958 suffer­
i~g. At this time instructions were given for Mary Ann to
mark the Corpus with red and purple crayons as she viewed
the Scourging of Our Lord. Mr. Swan held it and though it
was very difficult, through the tears Mary Ann marked the
bruises, lacerations and blood where they had appeared on
Our Lord's Body. This was to serve as a model for the sculp­
1 tors and the artists to follow when making the life-=-size Cor­
pus, which IDlL uested~s now on the grounds in the Cruci­
fixion Shrine.
4. A weight phenomenon was checked and verified several
times in 1951 and 1952 during the three hour period as
Mary Ann suffered the Passion of Our Lord. Doctors, der­
r gy, her husband and others tried to lift t!!.e foo.!Of1fie bed.
NormaUy this would not be difficult. However, even with
g!:~at effort it was practically impossible. Though-this Was
I checked on various Fridays, the results were always the
same.
From St. John of the Cross and other outstanding autho­
rities in the field of Mystical Theology, the weight pheno­
menon alone would suffice to prove that her ecstacies are
not natural.
Es;tatic rig~Jty was another characteristic of Mary
Ann's suffering of the Passion. When her arms went out in
the form of a cross, before or while Our Lord was nailed to
the Cross, her arms and fingers would be completely rigid.
Doctors, clergy and others tried to bend her arms or
straighten her fingers, neither being possible until Our
Lord expired and her arms relaxed.
The same was true as her left foot went over the right as
Our Lord's feet were nailed to the Cross.
Dr. Imbert Gourbeyre was a professor of m~cine for
over twenty-five years and the author of research work on
mystical phenomena in relation to medicine. He is one of
the fe;-doctors~ho had the occasion to study both of these
sciences and therefore can speak authoritatively on the
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18. subject. In his opinion, there is no need of the phenomenon
of weight to prove the genuiness of ecstacy, he holds that
"ecstatic rigidity alone" is already sufficient proof.
5. On Friday, M~rch~967, a Frid~yof Le!1t, the Seven
Sorrows of Our Sorrowful Mother of the Passion Prayer
was given. It was suggested that it be used as a meditation
for the Seven Sorrows Rosary.
SORROWFUL MOTHER PRAYER
Oh Sorrowful, Oh Holy Mother, Thy Heart was pierced through
when You stood beneath the Cross of Thy Divine Son, Who died to
redeem man. The anguish, the pain and sorrow You suffered for
man.
Oh Sorrowful, Oh Heavenly Mother, again Thy Heart is pierced
with anguish and sorrow, for' man has forgotten the Crucifixion, the
Death of Their Lord, and what it stands for. They continue on their
wayward ways while Thy Heart is pierced for love of them. Oh Sor­
rowful, Oh Heavenly Mother, pierce my heart of stone and fill its
veins with pure blood of love for My Lord and My God, whom I
have neglected, whose Wounds I have renewed. Take me beneath
Thy Mantle, Oh Heavenly Mother, protect me, guide me so I can­
not go astray and hurt Thy Divine Son and pierce Thy Heart with
sorrow, Oh Heavenly Mother, Amen.
Oh Holy Mother, make us worthy of Thy anguish. Show us the
way, the way to love Thy Son as Thou lovest Him. Open our hearts
asYour Heart has been opened with pain and sorrow. Open ours
with love for Thy Son, Our Lord, Our God, who is hanging there
nailed to a Cross, every bit of blood gushing forth from His Body,
an for us, so unworthy, so faithless, so thoughtless, so heartless, the
film of greed and sin and worldliness is in front of our eyes.
Oh Blessed Mother, pierce that film, tear it away so that we too,
can see Thy Son the way Thou hast seen Him. Open Thy arms and
take us to Thy bosom, show us the way, the lig!!t. Oh God, have
mercy on us.
Oh Sorrowful and Holy Mother, pray for us, guide us, protect us
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19. with Thy Blue Mantle. Lead us on the road to Thy Divine Son,
make us worthy of Him. Amen.
6. During the suffering of the Passion of Our Lord, Heaven
has shown in vision to Mary Ann what They wanted each of
the Fourteen Stations to represent. Also some of the various
other scenes shown to Mary Ann by Heaven are portrayed
here as accurately as possible in the pictures of paintings
made of them.
7. November 12, 1974, was the twenty-fifth Anniversary of the
Blessed Virgin Mary's first appearance at th~Qu~en of the
Holy Ros'!!"y Mediatrix of Peace ~hrine, Necedah, Wis­
consin. Therefore, the Blessed Mother as Mediatrix be­
tween God and man has been speaking to us all these years
trying to help us save Our Country, as well as North and
South America. Her requests are clear as to what the Chris­
tian world must do to ~pare themselves the persecution, suf­
fering and destruction that various parts of the world have
already experienced.
On May 29, 1950, Our Blessed Mother said, "At Fatima it took
nearly ~o years-:Itmust not take 30 years now-it would be too late."
Surely with electronic communications as we h~e th~_m tod~y, the
Christian people could be given the truth, unite in action, and spare
our Country, our Church, and our Youth at least some of this most
/ severe suffering, destruction and sorrow. In speaking of this period
) that is just ahead, the question was asked_by theCelestials, "Do you
not want to hold it back, lessen the severity of it, as well as shorten
'1 the duration of the Divine Chastisement?" "Do you not want to
( prevent a nuclear war, with all its frightful consequences?"
As to the attitude of the church with respect to victim souls espe ­
cially those suffering the stigmata, it can possibly be best under ­
stood as one reads the Collect of the Mass for the Feast Day in
honor of the Stigmata of St. Fransis, September 17th: "Oh Lord
Jesus Christ, Who-:-When the world was growing cold, in order to in­
flame our hearts with the fire of Thy love, didst renew the Sacred
l Marks of Thy Passion on the body of Blessed Francis; mercifully
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20. grant that, by his merils and prayers, we may always bear our cross,
and bring forth fruits worthy of penance, who live and reign with
God the Father, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, God, World without
end. Amen." (1?-.:;­
As there is much talk, expense and effort expended today in the
cause of PEACE, a quote from one of the Messages given on a Fri­
day of Advent deserves prayerful consideration by all and especial­
ly the leaders of our and all other countries, quote, "Mankind will
not find Peace until it turns to the Prince of Peace. There cannot be
Peace without Christ."
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OUR LORD AND HIS HOLY MOTHER SHARE THE
SALVATION OF MANKIND
When Our Holy Mother said these words to me in 1950, "MYChild,
Thy Lord was born of flesh and blood as man on earth, yet He was
Divine at the time of His birth. God the Father permitted this, to
show man the Way, the Light and the Truth, so great was His love
for man. Thy Lord grew up as any child of human nature on earth.
Go"(fihe Father permitted Thy Lord to suffer as man, for as God,
My Child, He could neither suffer pain or die. He had to be born as
( man conceived in the womb of a woman of human nature. God the
1 Father chose Me, My Child, to be that person. Thy Lord was con­
ceived within My wom.b through the Holy Ghost, yet My Son was
) God. While on earth He was like man. My Child, H~ is Tr!1.~."<;Jod
apd True man. He is equal with God the Father and the Holy
Ghost."
This to me, was so beautiful as I never had this explained to me.
lt gave me a greater understanding of Our Holy Mother's great love
for Her Divine Son, for in reality one can never se arate Our Lord
( and God from His Holy Mother; for whe~Spirit of the Holy
Ghost entered the womb of Our Holy Mother, which God the Fa ­
ther so willed, Our Lord's Life began as man of human nature by
) the blood of Our Holy Mother within the walls of Her womb, to a
full term Infant of human nature; yet this Infant was God. God the
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21. Father had chosen Mary, Our Holy Mother, to become the Mother
of His Divine Son,chooSlngHerwomb to be the Tabernacle for the
Son of God through Whose veins was flowing the blood of Our
Holy Mother's (of human nature), with every beat of Her heart; so
grew Her great love.
God the Father had chosen MJlfY, the only Child of Anne and
Joachim, to be the Mother of the Son of God. Just as their blood
flowed through Mary's veins, so did the blood of M~ry, Our Holy
Mother, flow through the veins of Her Divine Son. This is the rea­
son I cannot understand the attitude of so many of our Churchmen,
who seem to want to cast Our Holy Mother aside, as if She was only
the Woman that gave birth to Jesus Christ but that is where Her
part ends. If that was true, then, why did God the Father assume
Her into Heaven, body and soul? Because Her blood was the foun­
dation of Our Lord and God, Our Redeemer and Our Savior. Rath­
er God the Father chose Her as, "Queen of Heaven and Earth." If
man would only realize the great love that God the Father had for
His creation, man, whom He created in His liken~ image;yet,
man does not recognize this great love that God the Father be­
s~~~p~m man. So great was His love that 'He sent the Soon of
God down to earth to be born of a Woman, to walk the earth as
Man, to suffer as a common Man and die a cruel death to redeem
man, to give man eternal life.
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22. THE PASSION AND DEATH OF OUR LORD
JESUS CHRIST
As visioned, suffered and narrated by
Mrs. Fred (Mary Ann) Van Hoof 1950 - 1974
1. OUR LORD INSTRUCTS HIS HOLY MOTHER
AND BIDS HER FAREWELL
Our Holy Mother and several women are in a smaH house. It
looks like it is made of adobe. It has two rooms. Our Holy Mother
seems to be expecting someone. While She is waiting, Our Holy
Mother is speaking to the women very earnestly. It seems She is in­
structing them. Our Holy Mother looks so sad, oh Blessed Mother,
Sorrowful Mother, how sad She looks. Someone is coming down
the path. Our Holy Mother enters the other room, the holy women
are praying as Our Holy Mother awaits the entrance of someone. It
is Our Lord and God.
He is entering the little house. He is walking up to His Holy
Mother, They embrace. (Mary Ann draws a short sharp breath and
says, "How beautiful, how beautiful.") He clasps Her to Him. They
speak together very earnesHy. They are both so sad. Our Holy
Mother's eyes are filled with tears as She smiles. Oh Blessed Moth ­
er! There is such tenderness in Their eyes as They look at each
other, with such love and devotion. Oh such love, such compassion,
They have such great love for each other; never have I seen such
love in any eyes as This Mother has for Her Divine Son. Oh Holy
Mother! He seems to be telling Her something very important.
Our Holy Mother has dropped Herself on Her knees before Her
Divine Son and She raised up Her arms like this to Him. (Mary
Ann extends her arms upwards in front of her.) What They said 1do
not know but He stoops down and picks Her up so tenderly. She is
so small in His arms, He holds Her up off Her feet and now He sets
Her down so tenderly. Her eyes are filled with tears, oh such great
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23. love. They are speaking, of what I do not understand. (Mary Ann
prays aloud.) "Oh Holy Mother, Thou lovest Thy Son, with such
true devotion, such love. Fill our hearts with such love and devo­
tion, fill our minds and thoughts with such purity as Thou bestowest
upon Thy Son. Oh Holy Mother, give us the grace to accept such
pure love; as Thine eyes look into Thy Divine Son's eyes, such pure
l. and true love. Send that love down to us so we too can payrevei-­
e~ to ThY Divine Son andto-Yo-u, D--;ar Mother. Oh Dear Moth ­
er, oh Dear Mother, help us. We need Thee more and more each
day. The darkness about us is engulfing us. Give us a ray of sun ­
( shine and light. In Thine eyes and in Thy true love send it down to
us, give us the strength, the courage to face the enemy of Thy Di­
vine Son with righteousness and true devotion. Oh Holy Mother,
help us. I plead with you, help us, help us, Blessed Mother, Sorrow ­
ful Mother, pray for us."
Our Lord and God said to His Holy Mother, "I must go and ful­
( fill what God the Father has asked. The Eternal Father has called
) Me and what I told You before Mother, is now at hand. The time
. has come for Me to fulfill what has been ordained for Me to fulfill.
Mother I must be on My way. I must fulfill what God the Father
has placed Me here on earth to do. This is the time, do not shed
1 tears, Mother. I am fulfilling the wish of My Father in Heaven. God
the Father will let You see in vision what is happening. You need
not distress Yourself but stay here in this humble abode." Holy
Mother shakes Her head in the negative. He presses Her gently to
His bosom and He then sets Her down. 6....mist engulfs Them. The
mist has lifted, now They bid farewell. He abrupiTY leaves.
2. OUR LORD LEAVES TO FULFILL THE WILL
OF HIS FATHER IN HEAVEN
He walks down the main road, He has gone into the distance.
Our Lord meets the Apostle. Our Holy Mother speaks to the
women, with Her is the ~ with the beautiful golden hair. There
are several others with Her, theyare now leaving by a back door.
Our Lord and God has met a few men and others are walking
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24. toward them from sideroads. He speaks to them in a firm but kind
way. They all disperse as He has instructed them to do something,
which I do not understand, but they all seem to be hurrying in the
same direction.
Our Holy Mother and the women are not taking the same path
that Her Divine Son took. They are going a different direction, in a
round about way, but they too are heading in a similar direction. It
seems Thy Lord and God is praying as He walks along. He too
seems to be heading for the large building.
Now I have come to a village, there's a large building here. Many
people are entering this huge building. I see a strangely dressed
man carrying a flat woven basket, filled with fruit, enter into this
large building. Many people walking, carrying things, baskets,
fruit, bread. They too enter this building, they seem to be in a hurry.
The sky is dark and overcast. Some of these men walking, look like
the Apostles. They are not carrying anything, they only hurry into
this building.
3. OUR LORD UNDERSTANDS AND ACCEPTS
OUR HOLY MOTHER'S WISHES
Our Holy Mother is now coming to a side door, on a side street,
where She meets Her Divine Son. He shakes His head at Her.
Again He shakes His head in a negative action. He looks at Her
with stern disapproval. He speaks firmly to Her, yet, with true love
and kindness. He again reminds Her that He must be doing what
~ God the FathefiO'Heaven had asked Him to, that She was disobe­
dient to His demands; but He knew that Her love for Him was so
) great and Her longing to be near Him was overwhelming, so He un ­
I derstood that She truly is a Mother with a mother's heart, and that is
why She had to be near by. They em brace, such love, such love. He
( picks Her up, He presses Her to His bosom with great love and
devotion. Oh Holy Mother, Oh Sorrowful Mother, so sad, You look
so sad. She bows Her head in sadness and drops Herself on Her
) knees with Her arms extended to Him; He again picks Her up gent ­
, Iy. She seems to wish, oh I might say, wishes to help Him, take part
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25. in what Their eyes tell Each Other. He puts both hands on Her
shoulders and holds Her from Him as He gazes into Her beautiful
( blue eyes. They speak so softly and gently to each other. "Mother,
My hour has come. Thy Father in Heaven has sent for Me." Our
Holy Mother still seems to be alarmed. Tears are streaming from
I Her eyes, Her beautiful eyes. Her heart is heavy, as She gazes into
Her Son's eyes. Now a mist engulfs Them, for what is happening
between Them is fOf Them alone.
There are still other people carrying things into the large build ­
ing. They are also taking some lambs in a side door of this large
building.
Now the mist has lifted as Our Lord and His Holy Mother are
still conversing with one another. He pats Her on the shoulder and
seems to tell Her that He must be on His way; God the Father has
called Him and He must go. She bows Her head in adoration for
She knows that He must do as the Father in Heaven has asked Him.
Our Lord turns and walks slowly alone into the huge building.
His face is not of sadness, rather I would say of expectation, of joy.
4. THE UPPER ROOM
Now Our Holy Mother is joined by tDeJ~~h the beauEful
golden hair and the other holy women at this side door. They go to
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the upper room. (Now here I win have to explain.) The upper
chamber is not an upstairs as we know it today, it is built on a rocky
elevation which is higher than the lower; that's the reason it is
called the upper room because it was higher. It is built on the ledge
of rocks adjoining the lower portion and that is where Our Holy
Mother has entered. They are separate from the main large room.
There seems to be some confusion here. The women don't seem
to understand why they are being called here. Blessed Mother,
. Holy Mother, She is instructing them. Her heart is heavy. ~H~ly
~~and the wo~eE..-are now regea..!ing in prayer. It is the first
Cenacle or Retreat of prayer as some of you call it. Our Holy Moth ­
er was the first to start the Cenacle of Prayer.
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26. 5. OUR LORD INSTRUCTS THE MEN
I now view the interior of the lower floor of this large building. It
is a large room, I cannot estimate the size. There are large pillars
there, it is a huge room. There are tapestries or carpets, I wouldn't
know, hung to cover the windows. Strange looking lights are burn­
ing. They don't look like a lamp or a candle, or could I call it a lan­
tern. It is burning from a wick, or something similar. There's fluid
in the strange container. There are several men in this room, who
seem to be preparing something. There is another group of men in
one corner of the room. They are talking together, I cannot under­
stand them. Seem to be waiting for someone. They immediately
upon His entering turn and walk toward Our Lord. They could be
Our Lord's Apostles. There are twelve of them. Their language is
strange. Our Lord walks to this group of men. He speaks to them.
Our Lord speaks to them in kindness, but firmly. He overrules their
objections; He is always so compassionate, so kind. There seems to
be concern. Questions are being asked, there is even anxiety, espe ­
cially the youngest one. Our Lord calmly speaks to them and tries to
keep them calm. The one with the brown beard is anxious about
something. Our Lord calms him by raising His hand. They are
greatly concerned, but He continues to speak to them of something
of great importance. Many questions are asked.
It seems one of the Apostles ~oes not like what Our Lord and
God is saying to him, so he goes on his knees and begs Him in such
a humble way. It is rather nice the way he does it, but Our Lord and
God is firm and he gets back up on his feet. One is more shifty look­
ing, although he is very polite toward Thy Lord and God. They all
seem to be obedient to Our Lord.
In the opposite side of the room, there are many workers and
they are cleaning and washing in preparation for something and
they are very particular about it. Everything seems to look immacu­
late, so clean. They are scouring pots and earthenware, in prepara­
tion for something. The reason for their immaculate washing and
cleansing of utensils and all usable ware, such as crockery, pots and
pans; they are doing this because Our Lord and God demands it, it
is their custom because of the Pascal Feast. And the new instruction
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27. that He is giving to the Twelve Apostles and the Disciples with
them, to cleanse everything anew. The old must be washed away.
The same cleansing or procedure is being done in the upper cham­
ber. I do not understand what they are actually doing now. They are
very busy, while Our Lord is still in the corner speaking to the
twelve men. He is speaking quite earnestly and occasionally holds
up His hand as if to caution the over anxious. I cannot understand
them, can only describe their motions.
Now some of the workers coming away from the busy corner are
preparing, looks like, yes it is, a large table. They are spreading lin­
ens over it, as if preparing for a feast, for a meal.
6. OUR HOLY MOTHER INSTRUCTS THE WOMEN
While in the upper chamber, Our Holy Mother, the lady with the
beautiful golden hair and the other women are active. They are re­
moving some tapestry to enlarge the quarters, they too are prepar­
ing a table. They have cleaned some utensils which in this case
.seem mostly earthenware. Baskets of bread and fruit are standing at
the side.
The Beautiful Lady, Our Holy Mother is instructing them, yet it
seems Our Holy Mother's heart is heavy. Oh, the one with the beau­
tiful golden hair, clasps her hands as ifin anxiety, while the Beauti­
ful Lady calms her. I don't know what She is telling them, but She
holds Her hands in front of Her as if in a gesture of prayer. I cannot
understand, but, that is what it looks like to me. Our Holy Mother
and the lady with the beautiful golden hair prostrate themselves
and so do three of the other women with them. The one with the
beautiful golden hair and Our Holy Mother seem to know what is
going on in the room below.
7. PREPARATION IN THE LOWER CHAMBER
In the lower chamber Our Lord is still talking at the one side of
the large room and on the other side a table has been prepared. In
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28. the other part, further away frum where the main work is being
done, other preparations are being made. Some of the workers are
shining and rubbing, it seems it is not with a cloth but some kind of
a different mattrial. They are pulishing and rubbing sume gulJen
utensils, they are pfeparing them for something and they art mak­
ing such great effort that everything is immaculate, so clean. Every­
where it is beautiful. These utensils seem to be of gold I believe, I
am not sure, they have a golden look to them. There are several, but
how many I cannot see. Our Lord has now come here and is looking
down and watching them. He seems to be agreeable to what they
are doing.
Our Lord now walks toward a place near the end of this room.
Here in a corner are fruit and bread and it looks like the servants
are preparing some of the food that has been brought in. There are
baskets of small loaves of bread and fruit of every kind. Everyone in
this corner seems very active.
Our Lord goes back to the twelve Apostles on the opposite side of
the room, and again is speaking to them. The men who are prepar­
ing the huge table do not seem to belong with the twelve that are
with Our Lord.
At this end of the room it seems they are getting ready to do
something, preparations are being made, for what I cannot tell, I
cannot see. Now, oh yes, some of the men, that seem to be workers
or helpers, are bringing in lambs; four of them. They are bringing
these lambs to Our Lord. There are no women on this floor here, all
men. The women are in the upper chamber.
8. OUR LORD SLAUGHTERS THE LAMBS
Strange there is no struggle within these animals. The twelve
Apostles are standing in a semi-circle watching Our Lord as He
takes the life of the first lamb. One of the men, after Our Lord has
taken the life of the lamb, takes the lamb so gently in his arms and
ieaves, goes into a side room. They are removing the skin and en­
trails. Now they follow the same procedure with the second, and
now another man takes the second lamb into his arms,So gently,
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29. and walks where this first one disappeared. The twelve Apostles
just stand and watch. It is some of the servants that are assisting
with this task. Our Lord slaughters the third lamb and it is taken
from the room. In most animals when their life is taken, there is a
reaction of body muscles. This is lacking here. The fourth lamb
seems to be so different, it is not sad, but in its eyes is love so differ­
ent from the others. There are rays extending from this lamb. (Mary
Ann looks astonished.) But He, too, slaughters this one, but there
seems to be no pain, no suffering, just love in its eyes. Oh, the fourth
lamb looks up at Our Lord with an intelligent look in it's eyes and
licks His hands; not like a dumb animal, not at all. The youngest
Apostle assisted by an attendant, has been catching the blood of the
lambs. The blood is caught in a vessel as the lambs are being
slaughtered. I cannot explain, I do not understand. This is so
strange, no muscle reaction, just peaceful and quiet as if it were a
pleasure, as asleep; as ifit did not give up its life, or as ifit were only
sleeping. Such a feeling of great love as Our Lord takes the life of
the fourth lamb. (Mary Ann's expression is one of profound love
and wonderment.)
Its eyes stay open with a tenderness and understanding. I cann'ot
explain or put into words what is transpiring here. It gives one a
feeling of love. This lamb follows the rest, but the eyes never close.
There seems to be a strange radiance between this lamb and Our
Lord, beautiful, so beautiful. My Lord and My God, how beautiful.
Oh yes, I see now this fourth lamb symbolizes and represents Thy
Lord and God, that is the reason for the behavior of this lamb.
There is no reaction from it, as there is no reaction from the Lamb
of God. He will do as His Father instructed Him, so there is no
reaction in the lamb representing Him.
This fourth lamb sheds its blood. Thy Lord and God, too, will
shed His blood. That is the reason a lamb has been used to repre­
sent Thy Lord and God, for here it is already being used as a sym­
bol of Thy Lord and God. The blood of the fourth lamb was caught
in a very strange looking vessel by the apostle and one of the men.
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31. 9. OUR LORD MARKS SYMBOLS IN BLOOD
OVER DOORS, WINDOWS, ETe. r' 14-'{
Our Lord now takes this vessel of blood and is walking to the
door and windows. He dips His fingers into the bowl, into the blood
and makes a strange mark, a very strange sign. (Mary Ann uses her
right index finger and draws figures or symbols in the air.) Yes, He
also makes the Sign of the Cross above each doorpost and each
latch. The blood just disappears from His fingers, He need not wipe
them, there is none there. It is the washing away of the heathen
blood and devotion used here, to the new and beginning of Thy
Lord and God's Church. It must be purified and that is what this
blood is used for. These marks symbolize the walk and proceedings
of Thy Lord and God, after fulfilling the promise to His God in
Heaven.
While Our Lord is doing this, others are busy working. Each one
seems to know just what to do, closing all the openings and the ser­
vants are lighting strange looking lamps in another part of this large
room.
Our Holy Mother watched Her Divine Son making the sym bols
on all door posts and latches through a vision, that God the Father
permitted Her to have.
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32. 10 THE GREAT MYSTERY AND PERPETUATION
OF THE REDEMPTION OF MAN.
Our Lord has now completed His mission and comes back to the
corner where the twelve Apostles are waiting for Him. He speaks to
them, He instructs them. Our Lord seems to instruct them as to how
to pray. Their way of prayer, their behavior as Our Lord guides
them, is so devotional so different, so different from what I am ac­
customed to. As I view them praying, these are just common work­
men that Our Lord and God has chosen, the twelve Apostles with
calloused workmens' hands, workmens' muscles, they are sinewy
men. You can see that they have gone through life working hard
and here Thy Lord and God teaches them how to pray. It's beauti­
ful to watch these men being so obedient to Their Lord and God.
It seems they all have a mission to fulfill, for this seems to be such
a sincere devotion of love. The behavior of all here, be they the
women in the upper chamber or the Apostles with Our Lord, shows
great love for Thy Lord and God. Even those that are doing the
work are in that same frame of mind of devotional behavior, some­
thing serious, some expectation seems to be the whole atmosphere
here. He seems to continue talking to or instructing them, while in
the opposite corner they are busily preparing the lambs for cooking
or roasting, whatever it may be, everyone is very busy,
H. OUR LORD GIVES INDIVIDUAL INSTRUCTIONS
TO THE APOSTLES.
Our Lord seems to be instructing each man separately, seems to
tell each one, that is what it seems to me, because His eyes meet
each one individually now as He seems to instruct them. What He is
saying I do not know. It is all willingly and anxiously accepted by
all, except one. There is one amongst them who cannot look in Our
Lord's eyes. His eyes shift around as if Our Lord's eyes are some­
thing he cannot look into. He looks above him,just below, and from
one side to another. He cannot look into Our Lord's eyes with the
same love and devotion that the other eleven have. Our Lord seems
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33. to ignore this, He keeps on speaking as He has to all the rest.
While in the upper chamber everything is ready, the table has
been prepared. They too are active, but mostly now the holy
women are praying. The Beautiful Lady instructs them, speaks to
them, and asks them to continue to pray for they have completed
preparation of the room, the table for the women. (Mary Ann
smiles and says, "Oh Beautiful Lady, Beautiful Lady.")
The one with such beautiful hair seems very concerned and anx­
ious about something the Beautiful Lady tells her. She bows her
head in such humility, as she follows Our Blessed Mother, who is
now asking them all, yes they are all going down upon their knees to
pray. They are praying, such devotion, oh such devotion, the Cena­
de of Prayer, the sincerity.
12. A SPECIAL TABLE IS BEING PREPARED
THE LAST SUPPER
In the lower cham ber there is another table being prepared in the
far corner, it is a smaller table. There is not the same effort made or
should I say, they are not so particular here as they were at the larg­
er table. Here too, they are bringing fruits and bread, but the bread
and fruit is not as choice as at the larger table. It seems the choicest
fruit and bread has been placed at the larger table. There seems to
be one man who, I do not know, that seems to over-see all of this
and he is giving instructions here.
We are back again with Our Lord and the Apostles, twelve of
them, that have something of importance to discuss. Our Lord is
now again leaving the twelve and crosses over the large room to the
large table. There are many others here. They seem to be servants
preparing food and placing it on the table, which is not as high as
our tables, but lower. It is laden with strange dishes, earthen dishes,
bowls or little baskets like of fruit, grapes, all kinds of fruit. There
are small loaves of bread, little earthen lookingjars, what is in them
I do not know. The twelve Apostles seem to be gathered in one cor­
ner murmuring, either in meditation or prayer. Our Lord now after
instructing the servants turns back to the Apostles and joins them.
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34. The youngest one, the youngest looking one, he has no beard, grabs
His arm and seems to anxiously question Him. I do not understand
for the language is strange to me.
There is another Apostle, too, that questions Our Lord. He has a
brown beard, rather middle aged, I would say. He seems deeply
concerned, but Our Lord seems just to wave him aside as He seems
to be instructing them all. In this other room or corner of it there is a
continuous preparation of food. A large tray is now brought in,
laden heavily with food, fruit and other things exactly what I cannot
see. Tables are being laden with food. Oh yes, there is a big tray
coming with the first lamb that has been prepared. Our Lord, yes,
He is going toward it. He is blessing it. (At this time Mary Ann
makes the Sign of the Cross with the first two fingers extended up­
ward and the third and the fourth finger in the palm of her hand.
This is to show Our Lord blessing the first lamb. This again is re­
peated for the second and third lamb.)
13. PREPARED LAMBS TO VARIOUS TABLES.
They are leaving through a side door with the tray. The first tray
goes to the upper chamber. A second tray is brought in with another
lamb on it. The tray is covered over. Our Lord lifts the lid. It seems
to have, it could be, an apple in its mouth. Our Lord blesses this
lamb and again this tray leaves the room and is taken to the large
table. Behind Him is a third tray with a lamb upon it. This tray, the
third tray, after Our Lord blesses it, is taken to a side room in a far
corner, where a table is prepared, I believe for the servants. Yes, it is
for the servants. The fourth lamb, I do not know to whom or where
this one is going. There seems to be a special glow coming from it.
There is something special about this lamb, what, I do not under­
stand. Our Lord blesses it, there seems to be a strange look in it's
eyes, a tenderness which is hard to explain. Our Lord leaves this
lamb and walks to the table, calls them forward where the Apostles
take their places around it.
The cleaning of vessels and the preparation of food took a little
over an hour. (Mary Ann makes the Sign of The Cross). Our Lord
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35. speaks to them. The first lamb has gone to the upper chamber,
there too, a table has been prepared. The Beautiful Lady and the
holy women are going about the table as if preparing to partake of
the food. Oh Beautiful Lady, She seems deeply concerned. The
Beautiful Lady does not partake of the food. Her lips seem to be
moving in prayer while She urges the others to partake. The one
with the golden hair, she too declines to accept the food, the rest are
eating.
14. OUR LORD AND THE APOSTLES TAKE
THEIR PLACES AT THE TABLE
This, the main table, is a long oblong table. Our Lord sits at the
center not at the head, which seems rather strange, for He is the
Head. He should be at the head, but He is at the center of the table.
The youngest one is at the right side of Him. He places his head on
Our Lord's shoulder. (Mary Ann said, I will explain this action.
When the youngest one places his head on the shoulder of his Lord
and God, he is given a special insight as to what is before them. He
can see the needs, he has an inner vision. Our Lord and God has
chosen him to stand by His Mother. The brother of this youngest
one also gets an inner vision of what is to happen. He is one of them
that later falls asleep). The one with the brown beard or middle
aged, who I seem to be attracted to, is at the left side of Our Lord.
Next to him is the young one who has a very small, oh just the be­
ginning of a beard. I think he would be about twenty years of age, as
the youth is still there. The rest of them, there are four of them, they
have long gray beards and their hair is also gray. They seem to be
from a poor class of people, not of wealth, just humble and hard
working men, for their hands look like working mens' hands, cal­
loused and gnarled with labor. There is one among them, he too,
draws my attention, I don't know what there is about him, his beard
is dark, his hair is dark. His eyes are not as kind and as humble as
the rest of them. There seems to be a sort of shiftiness in his glance.
At one moment he looks at Our Lord and his eyes soften, a kind­
ness, a love comes into them, then a flicker and it is gone. Such
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wrong, but what I do not know. While I was giving you a descrip­
tion of the darker one, Our Lord was blessing the food before them;
that is, it looked like He did. I cannot say for sure as I do not under­
stand Him. I can hear the voices but cannot understand the words.
They are now beginning to eat, but Our Lord does not partake of
the food. They tear off morsels of lamb, morsels of bread with their
hands and are eating it. The Apostle on the left seems concerned
. that Our Lord is not eating. He smiles at him kindly and seems to
assure him of something, which I do not understand. The youngest
Apostle lays his head upon Our Lord's shoulder. The love that is in
his eyes, the love that exchanges between them, is so beautiful, so
beautiful. Oh what a beautiful world we would be living in today if
there was such love between man and Our Lord.
Our Lord is speaking to them all. What He said, I must again re­
peat, I do not understand, but those about Him seem concerned.
He looks straight into their eyes as He gives each one instructions.
They seem to be questioning Him, and the one with the brown
beard and hair seems to put out his hand before him and pkadingly
looks into Our Lord's eyes as if to say, is he guilty of something? I do
not know if this is correct but that is the way he acts, and the one on
the right reaches toward Our Lord and seems to be very anxious.
Others reach toward Him from around the table, all except the one
with the dark beard, whose eyes do not reflect sincerity and love.
Yes, they flicker and then dim. He cannot look into the eyes of Our
Lord and God. It seems Our Lord and God makes no notice of the
behavior of this one. He speaks as if they are all the same, but the
shifty look in the eyes of the one is very evident. He looks at the
floor, or any object, but not into the eyes of His Lord and God.
15. OUR LORD AND THE APOSTLE DIP
THEIR FINGERS IN A DISH
While Our Lord looks at him, this one with dark hair and eyes of
not true love, he places his fingers in a dish or what looks like a
salad bowl. (Mary Ann makes a motion as of dipping her fingers
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38. into a dish.) He partakes of it and Our Lord takes a little crust of
bread in His hand and dips it into the dish and places it in front of
the youngest one. What He is saying I do not know. He seems con­
cerned when He makes this remark. If I could only understand it.
Our Lord says it with compassion, with compassion and love in His
eyes. Why the strange feeling about this one? (Mary Ann looks dis­
gusted and says, "Shifty eyes, it is so strange.")
(Mary Ann makes the Sign of the Cross.) They again seem to be
meditating. Now they are dispersing. The servants are rapidly re­
moving the food and the left-overs from the table. Others are draw­
ing tapestries or huge rugs, I cannot tell what they are, along the pil­
lars, making one room smaller than the rest. Our Lord and the Apo­
stles again recline in the same places where they were first. Above
the door near them, is a Cross and the strange mark from the blood
of the lamb.
16. OUR LORD WASHES THE FEET OF THE APOSTLES
Servants are bringing in a huge bowl and a large pitcher of water.
They are leaving for the opposite side of the room. Our Lord and
God has summoned them to come to Him. (Mary Ann motions
with right hand that they form into a semicircle.) Our Lord is asking
them to be obedient, for they now recline. Again Our Lord and
God speaks to the Apostles and now He prostrates Himself before
them. There is much objection coming from the one with the brown
beard. He is near tears for he doesn't want to have the Lord wash
his feet, but Our Lord and God with firm but kind words tells him
to be seated. They seem to accept as He again asks them all to be
obedient. The one who objected so strenuously now sits down in
obedience. It seems Our Lord is preparing to wash their feet. He re­
moves His robe. Our Lord pulls a cord or sash tightly about Him,
and turns up the sleeves of His garment, while there seems to be
objection from some of the others, and again from the one with the
brown beard. Such kindness and compassion in Our Lord's eyes as
He lifts His hand and they become silent. He speaks firmly. I do not
understand what they are saying but it seems whatever He said,
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39. they have accepted it and are now reclining as Our Lord prepares to
wash the feet of the one that objected so strenuously, the one with
the brown beard and hair. Our Lord kneels down on His left knee,
places the right foot of the Apostle into the bowl and washes his
feet, while the one with the brown beard bows his head in humility
and humbleness. This act seems to imply something. I do not know
what, as He is speaking and instructing each as He washes their
feet, even the one with the brown beard points to his head and
hands. I don't know what He is implying or saying. I do not under­
stand Him, but Thy Lord and God, with such a compassionate
look, such loving and gentle ways, speaks to them. Not in harsh
words but soft spoken, kind words and they are obedient to Him. It
is beautiful, the humility and humbleness that is portrayed here by
all, excepting one of them, the dark one. (Mary Ann again looks
very disgusted.)
Our Lord and God kneels on one knee in front of the one with
the dark hair, but he does not look at Him. He has such shifty eyes,
avoids glancing into Our Lord's face, he looks down or to the side.
There is something strange about him, very strange. He does not act
like the others who are humble, and kind; he seems more arrogant,
deception seems to show on his face. He has the strangest look, but
Our Lord and God treats him just the same as the others. It makes
no difference it seems, He talks to him, He washes his feet, kneeling
before him just as all the rest.
17. THE BLESSED MOTHER AND THE
HOLY WOMEN IN THE CENACLE
In the Cenac1e of the holy women, there too, their meal is fin­
ished. The Beautiful Lady leaves and the women clear off the table.
Our Holy Mother, and the lady with the beautiful golden hair
seems to know just what is going on below, in the other chamber,
for as they prepare, as they leave the table, she too is watching as
Our Lord is washing the feet of the Apostles, and She is urging the
women to pray.
The one with the golden pair sheds many tears for she seems to
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40. sense that something is about to happen and she wants to help. She
follows Our Holy Mother at every turn and helps Her with many
tasks. There is such love and devotion here. Several of the other
women are also kind and helpful.
Two of the women that are with the Mother of Our Lord, seem to
be at Her side continuously. The one with the long, thick, golden
hair, pleads with Our Holy Mother, as if to ask Her what they can
do. I do not know if that is what she is saying, but the plea, her hand
extended to Our Holy Mother, seems to indicate she is pleading to
help, and the eyes of Our Holy Mother are sad. Her eyes are filled
with tears constantly, and as She speaks to the holy women it seems
that they are bewildered. They don't seem to understand what She
is saying. There is such a deep sadness about Her, such a hush and
silence in this room. They are all on their knees in prayer.
The servants, too, are praying in another room on the other side
of the house. While my eyes were observing the holy women in the
room, the scene here has changed. Our Lord has just finished wash­
ing the feet of the Apostles and some of them that wore sandals are
replacing them. Some are barefoot.
The voice of a saint at this time said, "The washing of the feet is
to symbolize the cleansing of oneself before the Consecration
which is to follow. To cleanse themselves and while Thy Lord and
God was washing their feet, in all humbleness, the Apostles used
this moment to confess, to offer; many promises were made. For
they objected to Our Lord washing their feet, but this is to symbol­
ize the cleansing of oneself, before the great moment tha·t is to fol­
low." (This period took one hour between the Last Supper and
their entering into the tapestry divided room).
18. PREPARATION FOR THE FIRST MASS
Now down in the first chamber, a tapestry has been drawn. It
seems to be for seclusion, to keep away from all the others for this is
a large open room. They use tapestry to divide any portion into
smaller rooms if they so choose, which they seem to now have done
in this corner of the room. This room here is different. In this small
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41. enclosure they are preparing another table. (Mary Ann smiles then
draws a V shape with her hands.) The linens being used on this
table which is V shape, not square or oblong, are of a finer material
than the ones used at the other table. The linens are so beautiful, so
white. This table is higher. They are bringing twelve small vessels
that are of a fine quality. They are placing them at the longest parts
of this strange table. They are also placing a small container, what it
is used for I do not know. There is a small flat, more like a tray
being placed at the end of the narrowest part of the table.
Our Lord and the twelve Apostles are entering this room. They
go in as in a procession. Our Lord leads the way and they follow two
by two behind Him. They walk in a very humble way. (Mary Ann's
expression is so peaceful.) Oh! "It is like a sanctuary." A strange
feeling comes to one's heart. Before walking to what seems to be the
head, Our Lord again speaks to them and instructs them as He
points, and gestures with His arm. Yes, one of the Apostles has gone
to the window and is pulling the tapestry shut. Our Lord stands at
the head of this V shaped table. The window with the tapestry
drawn over it is right behind Him. Also behind Our Lord I can see a
canopy, it looks so special and above it is one of the marks Our Lord
made with the blood of the lamb. There seems to be just enough
room, oh, you might say it is about four feet. I could be wrong, and
then it spreads away from Him like this. (Mary Ann traces in the air
the shape of a large V with her finger.) It forms a V. The Apostles
are at the sides of this, reclining upon their left knee. There are no
stools or huge pillows as in the other place. There are six on each
side, while Our Lord is at the end of the V which makes Him the
Head of them all. The one with the brown beard, the one that seems
to play an important part here, is again at the left side of Our Lord.
The youngest one with no beard or mustache, but has lovely light
brown hair, similar to Our Lord, (a little lighter than Our Lord,) is
again at the right side but on the oblong, the part extending away
from Our Lord. Next to him is an older one, next to him is the dark
haired one, next to him the other three, some are younger than oth­
ers. On the left side of Our Lord is the brown haired one, second-is
the one that has just the start of a beard, you might say. He, too,
looks very young, and then there is another dark brown haired one
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42. and older ones, two of them with gray beards. They have hardwork­
ing hands. They are reclining, bowing their heads. They are prepar­
ing for something, for what I do not know. Except the one, he is un­
attentive. He looks about while the others are lost within them­
selves, in meditation.
19. OUR HOLY MOTHER VISIONS THE ROOM BELOW
In the upper room it seems Our Holy Mother is being given the
vision of the room below where Her Divine Son is preparing for a
solemn, it seems so solemn, some great devotion. They are all on
their knees and Our Holy Mother has Her arms crossed, (Mary Ann
crosses her arms over her chest) while the holy women hold their
hands like this. (Mary Ann holds her hands in an attitude of
prayer.)
Our Lord is instructing the Apostles. Within this room are two
other strange men who have just appeared. Who they are I do not
know. Our Lord still instructs the Apostles very humbly and de­
voutly. The Apostles recline, but Our Lord still stands. He now re­
clines as He continues to instruct them, then He stands again.
(Mary Ann makes the Sign of the Cross twice.)
In the upper room, Our Holy Mother and the women are bless­
ing themselves. It seems She saw the blessing of the Apostles. Our
Lord and God is still instructing them.
The two strangers in the room with gray hair and gray beards, do
not belong to the former ones, they seem to be to the side of the
room.
To the left of Our Lord at the side of the room there is a small
table. It does not exactly look like a table but one could call it that.
On this table is a container covered with a linen cloth. It is from this
container that two of the Apostles take small loaves of bread and
also bring forth a beautiful pear-shaped vessel or chalice which
seems to be made of gold. It is very beautiful. It glows, it was placed
on a tray. Then they place it all before Our Lord and God. The
youngest one has gone. Now he brings a white linen cloth, which he
gives to Our Lord. The one with the brown beard is going to the side
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43. of the room and is bringing a strange looking earthen-ware contain­
er. It seems to be, no, a jar,-it is hard to explain. The two Apostles
then go back and take their own places.
This bread does not look like the loaves of bread they had at the
supper, the loaves are different, much flatter. He now speaks to
them and they all solemnly recline. (Mary Ann makes the Sign of.
the Cross twice.) Our Lord blesses what the two Apostles brought
before Him, again He speaks to them. Now He seems to be blessing
all of them. The one without the beard seems so concerned; he
never leaves the side of Our Lord and God. He places His hand on
the shoulder of this one Apostle as if to reassure him that everything
is alright.
20. OUR LORD INSTITUTES THE HOLY
SACRIFICE OF THE MASS
No one seems to be speaking, everyone seems to be alone with
himself. There is such an uplifting feeling, so heavenly, so beauti­
ful. Our Lord looks heavenward.
Our Lord and God raises His arms, (Mary Ann raises her arms
above her head.) turning His eyes heavenward towards God the
Father in Heaven. At that instant God the Father appears above
Our Lord in a flash. It seems that Our Lord and God offers Himself
to God the Father, that He willed it so. Oh, how beautiful Our Lord
and God looks, how beautiful! (Mary Ann's expression is one of
rapture and awe) I cannot find words to explain this beauty, and the
reverence one feels. (Mary Ann raises her right hand, makes the
Sign of the Cross with two fingers extended.)
CONSECRATION OF THE BREAD ­
TRANSUBSTANTIATION.
Our Lord picks up the loaf of bread, again His eyes look heaven­
ward toward God the Father Who willed the changing of the bread
into His flesh. Here I find no words to explain the awesome feeling
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raised holding the loaf of bread, which pulsates with brilliant rays
oflight coming from above, and all around Our Lord. How beauti ­
ful Our Lord looks during this moment when He holds the loaf of
bread in His hands. He is speaking but I do not understand what He
is saying. His whole being seems to glow as though He is transpar ­
ent, as if He isn't there, and yet He is present. Our Lord lays the loaf
of bread down before Him. He breaks the loaf in half and the one
half into many pieces. Our Lord's eyes turn heavenward; His lips
are moving as He speaks to God the Father. It seems at this mo­
ment that there is such a great brilliance all about the Sacred Table.
Rays of light seem to come from above and from Our Lord's body
engulfing the loaf of bread which seems to pulsate, throb, or vibrate
with a glowing light as Our Lord's eyes look heavenward; as He
speaks to God The Father in Heaven. (At this time Mary Ann raises
to a sitting position, reaches upward with both arms. Her expres­
sion is one of complete awe and reverence. Her arms continue to
extend upward as she apparently sees something very, very beauti ­
ful. Tears flow from her eyes as she says with love and devotion,
"My Lord and My God." At the same time her arms cross and her
hands rest on her shoulders. She then says, "One feels so unworthy,
so unworthy, so unclean, yet one's chest seems to burst as one's heart
swells with such a great love that glows within you. All one can do
as you witness this Great and Sacred Moment is say, 'MY LORD,
MY GOD: MY LORD, MY GOD' ". As there is a tightness in
one's throat, I find no words suitable to explain the awesome feel­
ing of rapture; the joyful experience as one says, "My Lord, My
God, I am not worthy.") During all this it seems the ceiling disap­
peared and Angds, Cherubs, and Saints appeared in its place. It
seems all of Heaven came down. Such a heavenly beauty; such a
joyful experience. I cannot explain the feeling, it is as if one is lifted
up and isn't here on earth. All the Apostles' eyes were turned heav­
enward, they seem awe-stricken and their eyes seem to have such a
heavenly expression of love, of devotion; how beautiful, how beau ­
tiful. Oh God! Oh God! Open this up to our priests, open this up to
our priest. (Mary Ann said this in a most pleading tone of voice,
while the tears flowed from her eyes.) Let them see the "Glory of
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46. Glories" of Heaven, that Thy Lord and God represents. Oh Lord,
Oh God! Oh Lord, Oh God!
In the upper chamber it seems Our Blessed Mother, Our Holy
Mother, witnesses all of this. Mary Ann smiles and says, "Oh so
beautiful, at this sacred moment is the reverence, the devotion por ­
trayed by all the women while Our Holy Mother and the one with
the golden hair prostrate themselves during this so solemn period."
Some of the women in the adjoining room are praying with folde"d
hands, with such devotion. Also those who prepared the food, and
performed the other tasks in the main room, are now on their knees
and praying with deep devotion during this most solemn period.
22. CONSECRATION OF THE WINE ­
TRANSUBSTANTIATION
I am now drawn back to Our Lord and God Who is briefly speak­
ing with the Apostles. Our Lord blesses the beautiful pear-shaped
vessel or Chalice, again the brilliance of light shines on Our Lord.
He picks up the golden vessel or Chalice, (Mary Ann holds her
hands together in the shape ofa Chalice.) and offers it up to His Fa­
ther in Heaven and just as before, God the Father shows Himself in
a flash. The brilliant rays of light from above, seem to penetrate
Our Lord and God. The light seems to flow from Our Lord's body
which engulfs the Golden Vessel or Chalice, and It seems to pulsate
or vibrate with a throbbing motion. A darker substance seems to
flow into the Golden Vessel or Chalice from Our Lord's body, yet,
He is visible as One. (Mary Ann raises from a reclining position,
stretches forth her arms, looks up with great reverence and devo ­
tion; then reaching higher and higher and as her body trembles and
strains, tears stream down her face as she says, "MY LORD, MY
GOD; MY LORD, MY GOD. God the Father in Heaven, God the
Son and God the Holy Ghost, Angels in Heaven." Slowly she re­
turns to a reclining position criss-crossing her arms over her chest in
an attitude of prayer and great reverence). This seems so strange,
the transparent look, yet it isn't. I just cannot explain it. Just as be­
fore the Angels, Cherubs and Saints appear on all sides above Our
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47. Lord, the same brilliant light, the same glorious feeling engulfs one
as all one can say, "Oh My Lord, My God, I am not worthy; My
Lord, My God, I am not worthy to witness this Solemn Moment."
This heavenly feeling of great joy, it is just unexplainable. I fail here
to find the words to express this glorious heavenly scene as Our
Lord and God offers Himself to His Eternal Father in Heaven.
This is the most solemn period when God the Father showed
Himself to His Divine Son. Our Holy Mother witnessed this
beauty, this sacred, sacred moment! Even Enoch and Elias were
called forth in their mortal bodies to witness and partake in this
most solemn period. This was just told to me by a voice. (Then
Mary Ann crossed her arms over her chest and again said with such
deep devotion "My Lord and My God.")
Our Lord speaks to the Apostles as they seem to arise with still
this beautiful expression on their faces, all except one, this dark
looking one. He has a strange expression of uncertainty, mixed
emotion of guilt, of awe and fear which he is trying very hard to
hide.
Our Lord and God picks up one of the particles of bread He had
broken previously. He holds it up, seems to be saying something
which I do not understand. Now the Apostle at the right of Our
Lord and the one from the left of Our Lord, the same two that
brought the strange looking container from the side of the room
humbly kneel down together.
While I was watching, the two Apostles leave their places at the
table, which Our Lord had commanded them to do. Our Lord fin­
ished praying over the Particles of Bread. Our Lord and God par­
takes of Himself in all humbleness and humility. It is so strange,
underneath each Particle, no matter now small, there is an Image of
Himself, this is very strange and yet so beautiful.
23. ANGELS TAKE THE SACRED SPECIES
TO OUR HOLY MOTHER
Our Lord gives an angel, it is Archangel Gabriel, a Particle of
Bread with an Image of Our Lord and God beneath It. Another
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48. angel is taking a small Chalice with Liquid. They take the Sacred
Species to Our Lord's Holy Mother in the upper chamber. Our
Lord and God gives a Particle of Bread with His Image underneath
it to the youngest Apostle and to the one with the brown beard.
(Mary Ann shows the size of His Image with her finger about 11 /2
inches.)
24. APOSTLES RECEIVE THE SACRED SPECIES
While Our Lord gave these two Apostles each a Particle of Bread,
two other Apostles, one from each side of the table, would enter
within. They humbly kneel down. The Apostles who walk within
the V together, give each other the Particle of Bread which Our
Lord and God has placed before them. Here again appears the
same Image of Our Lord and God; even the smallest little Crumb
that had fallen off as Our Lord and God had broken the Bread, no
matter how small the Piece, the Image of Our Lord and God is
transformed upon It; even while He stands there all aglow, Our
Lord has a transparent look, the only word I can use.
God the Father in Heaven had willed it so. Every Particle of
Bread separated from the main Particle will not be an accident. It
will not be just a limb of Our Lord, it will be His Whole Body unit ­
ed. Each Particle is Thy Lord and God, whole and entire. (Mary
Ann spoke these words with much humility, sincerity and convic­
tion.) This is all so strange to watch. It is so beautiful! One feels like
they are in Heaven, and God the Father is there, while His Divine
Son comes within one. Oh so beautiful! Such a glorious feeling of
JOy.
Now Our Lord and God pours from that Beautiful Golden Ves­
sel or Chalice some Liquid; just a few drops into the smaller vessels,
which the two Apostles are holding, in their left hands. (Mary Ann
gasps with surprise and exclaims, "Oh how beautiful!") An image
appears of Our Lord's Heart with blood-like liquid flowing from it
into the little vessels, which they are partaking of. Oh how beauti­
ful! Now both the Apostles arise, as it seems Our Lord instructs
them to do so. They walk in back of Our Lord and God to the right
side of the room where the tapestry or carpet was drawn. They open
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49. it partially. Beside them are the two strangers with long gray hair
and beards, Enoch and Elias. They both receive of the Particles of
Bread and of the Liquid or Wine from the two Apostles who now go
to the partially open tapestry as the workers and attendants come
up to {he opening by twos to receive. THEY ALL HUMBLY
KNEEL TO PARTAKE. The youngest gives the Liquid or Wine, I
am not sure what the Vessel really contains. They partake and
leave, while others come forward to partake. The other Apostles
continue to enter the V by twos. They give each other a Particle of
Bread. Our Lord and God pours a Liquid or Wine from an earthen­
like jug into smaller pear-shaped Vessels. They are similar to the
one before Our Lord only much smaller. (Mary Ann gestures with
her hands the size of these containers.) There is one for each Apos­
tle, which the Apostle carries in his left hand when he enters within
the V.
But in the third group as they go in twos, the darker one, he is the
third Apostle from the right of Our Lord, his face seems much dark­
er, seems a little more sunburned, wind burned, with darker expres­
sion than the rest. He gave a Particle of Bread to the one Apostle
with him inside the V. Now the other ~postle with him gives him,
(Mary Ann says, "Oh", and with an expression of surprise says, "an
Angel snatches the Particle of Bread from his lips, he doesn't par­
take." Mary Ann seems to be listening, then says, "Yes, I under­
stand, that would be desecration.") He turns very dark and leaves.
He never looks toward His Lord and God. He does not go back to
his place at the table but sneaks behind them near the carpet or tap­
estry. He does not fool Our Lord and God, for, He knew this was in
his plans, the evil thoughts His betrayer had within him. Our Lord
looks down on him with pity and sadness. This darker one, gives
one the feeling of evilness, betrayal, or something terribly wrong.
(Mary Ann shudders in disgust.) He slips in back of the Apostles,
stops behind a pillar, watches the other Apostles as they, un­
disturbed, continue to receive both Species. He slips slowly out be­
hind the partition of either carpet or tapestry, and leaves. Because
of his immediate departure after the Angel snatched the Bread
away, he does not touch or partake of the Liquid or Wine as the rest
of the Apostles did.
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50. 25. TRUE WORDS OF CONSECRATION
A deep voice spoke, who it was, I do not know. "You have just
witnessed the True Consecration of the Holy Bread into the Body of
Thy Lord and God. This Bread, at this moment, becomes insepara-
ble from Thy Lord and God, every Particle, no matter how large or
small, becomes Thy Lord and God as a Whole, United and Entire.
This is called TRANSUBSTANTIATION. That is the reason you
witnessed the Image of Thy Lord and God on every Particle of
Bread. The Holy Bread of Life Eternal, the reality and sign, is the
True Body of Thy Lord and God; thus, the grace uniting the soul
with Thy Lord and God. Thy Lord and God instructs the Apostles
thus. You witnessed an instant appearance of God the Father to
Thy Lord and God, so He wills this. When Thy Lord picks up the
loaf of Bread, He tells the Apostles: 'THIS IS MY BODY! TAKE
YOU ALL AND EAT OF THIS. FOR THIS IS MY BODY
WHICH IS GIVEN FOR YOU, DO THIS IN REMEMBRANCE
OF ME.' At this moment, God the Father and Thy Lord and God
with the Holy Ghost, are united into One, thus, God the Father so
wills.
"You again witnessed the solemn, the most glorious moment,
when Thy Lord and God picked up the Golden Vessel, the Chalice,
the Heart of Thy Lord and God; as you witnessed the Blood flows
from Thy Lord into this goodly Chalice as Thy Lord and God pours
wine into the Chalice. Thy Lord again instructs them (Apostles).
'FOR THIS IS THE CHALICE OF MY BLOOD OF THE NEW
TESTAMENT AND ETERNAL COVENANT, THE MYSTERY
OF FAITH, WHICH SHALL BE SHED FOR YOU AND FOR
MANY UNTO THE FORG IVENESS OF SINS. AS OFTEN AS
YOU SHALL DRINK IT, IN MEMORY OF ME SHALL YOU
DO IT.' The voice continues: Thus, He Thy Lord instructs His
Apostles, this Bread is His Body, this Wine is His blood and is given
to those who are not of sin and for all men who obey Him, which
you witnessed when Judas the evil one, was ready to partake of the
Particle of Bread, which was Holy Bread of Life Eternal, and the
small Chalice of Wine, Thy Savior's blood of Unending Salvation,
All perfect; had Judas partaken that would have been desecration.
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51. That is why God the Father instructed the Angel to snatch It from
him (Judas).
"When Thy Lord speaks of ,you' He means the Apostles, and for
'many' He means the men of the New Testament. He told the Apos­
tle 'I, Thy Lord and God, pray for you (meaning the Apostles). I
pray not for the world, but for them whom Thou hast given Me, be­
cause they are Thine. I am the Vine, you are the branches.' Much is
lost in translation from Thy Lord's language to your language as the
true meaning cannot be brought forth."
Back at the main place Thy Lord and God is speaking to the rest
of the Apostles (nine of them). The two Apostles returned after giv­
ing the two Species to all attendants, workers, cooks and those that
did other tasks. They place before Our Lord the Particles left,
which Thy Lord and God now places into another smaller Vessel
and covers It with a white linen cloth, which they now take to the
side where they first brought It from, the smaller table. They place
It within the strange looking container which is covered with a
white linen cloth. While the two Apostles return the Particles to the
small table, Our Lord and God wipes the beautiful golden pear ­
shaped Vessel or Chalice with a white linen cloth. After Our Lord is
finished cleansing this beautiful Vessel, He speaks to them. Our
Lord gives one of the Apostles the same linen cloth He used to wipe
the pear-shaped Vessel or Chalice which the Apostle uses to wipe
and cleanse his smaller Vessel. When he is finished he passes it on
to the next, until all small Vessels are cleansed, even the one that
the dark haired one never used; yet the Apostle wipes It. After all
the Vessels are clean, Our Lord and God blesses all the Apostles,
also the two strangers with the gray hair and beards. (Mary Ann
makes the Sign of the Cross.) After the blessing they all bow their
heads in deep prayer and meditation.
While in the upper chamber Our Holy Mother is praying with
the Holy Women with such deep devotion and meditation. Our
Holy Mother makes the Sign of the Cross as She visualizes Her Di­
vine Son's blessing of the Apostles. Our Lord and the eleven seem
to have been in deep meditation or prayer. Now Our Lord speaks to
them and they arise. They retreat to the side and continue to pray.
Our Lord and the eleven Apostles in retreat of prayer while the
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