Destiny, freedom fighter ended up in marriage, Khadi lifelong. Memory after 53 years of marriage.

1. ifguuk Fkk ds'kfj;k ckuk] ifguuk iM+k fookg
dk ds'kfj;k tkek
iq:"kksRre fot; vkSj dkUrk ¼xqIrk½ ukusfj;k claripaeh ƒ‹†0
fof/k&fo/kku loksifj gSA cy] foØe] cqf)] lPpkbZ vkSj bZekunkjh vkfn lHkh xq.kksa
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dh fof/k&fo/kku ds vkxs dqN ugha py ikrhA ,sls la;ksx vkdfLed :i ls curs gSa
fd O;fDr yk[k iz;Ru djs]a mls fof/k&fo/kku ds le{k ur&eLrd gksuk gh iM+rk
gSA yksx le>krs gSa fd fdUrq le> esa ckr vkrh ugha] vk, dgka ls cqf) tks Hkz"V
gks tkrh gSA gksuh ds vkxs dc fdlh dh pyh gS gksuh gksus ds ckn Hkwy ekywe
gksrh gS] fdUrq rc &
vc iNrk;s dk D;k gksrk gS]
tc fpfM+;k pqx xqbZ [ksrA

2. esjs lkFk ,slh gh ?kVuk gqbZ fd ns'k&izse dk ozr VwV x;k vkSj cfyiFk
vka[kksa ls vks>y gks x;kA ds'kfj;k ckuk ifguus dk ladYi fookg dk ds'kfj;k
tkek /kkj.k djus esa cny x;kA ;g lc esjs eu dh fucZyrk FkhA fgUnqRo ds
laLdkj vkSj bafnz;ksa ds yksHk&eksg dk ?kupDdj FkkA ifjokj ls vf/kd eka ds izfr
eeRo FkkA eSa 'kknh&C;kg ds ckjs esa tkurk gh D;k Fkk 17 osa o"kZ dks ikj dj 18
osa esa gh rks x;k FkkA
fnYyh esas gq, dkaxszl vf/kos'ku ls ykSVdj bUnkSj vk;k gh Fkk] i<+kbZ 'kq: dh
gh Fkh fd vtesj dkaxzl dk cqykok Lo;alsodkasa dks feykA eSa fQj ?kj ls Hkkx
s
fudyk vkSj vtesj esa dkaxzl dk;kZy; esa viuh gkftjh uksV djkbZA ge Lo;alsodksa
s
dks ;g vkns'k fn;k x;k fd ge ljdkjh n¶rjksa ij fcuk fxj¶rkj gq, frjaxk
Qgjk;s vFkok vtesj 'kgj ds pkjkas vksj dh igkfM+;kas ij frjaxk >aMk yxk;sA
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iqfyl vkSj Lo;alsodkas ds chp vka[k fepkSyh dk etsnkj ukVd py iM+kA ge jkr
ds izFke izgj ess]a vk/kh jkr esa ;k lw;kZsn; ds iwoZ 4&4 dh VqdM+h esa fNidj
igkfM+;ksa ij tkrs vkSj yacs ckal esa cka/k frjaxk x<~<k [kksn xkM+ vkrsA lwjt dh
fdj.kksa ds izdk'k vkSj iou >dkjksa esa frjaxk Qgjkrs ns[k uxj okfl;ksa g"kZ Hkjk
dkSrqgy gypy ep tkrhA iqfylokyksa esa >aMk m[kkM+us dh nkSM+/kwi ns[krs gh curh
FkhA vkSj ge viuh fot; ij ukp mBrsA usrkvksa dh 'kkCkklh ls geesa pkSxuk
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mRlkg meM+ iM+rkA
gesa jkst 3 vkus [kkuk [kkus ds fy, feyrs FksA blesa gekjk isV rks Hkj tkrk
Fkk ysfdu jksfV;ka lw[kh gksrh FkhA gekjs usrkvksa dk [kkuk cf<+;k gksrk FkkA dbZ ckj
gesa ;g HksnHkko v[kjrk] fdUrq geus bls dksbZ egRo ugha fn;kA gesa rks Hkkjrekrk
dh lsok dh yxu FkhA lksprs tc egkjktk izrki us ?kkl dh jksVh [kkdj vktknh
dh yM+kbZ yM+h rks gesa rks de ls de xsgwa dh jksfV;ka rks fey gh jgh gSA fQj
fnYyh tsy dh jsrhyh jksfV;kas ls rks vtesj ds gksVy dh jksfV;ka dkQh vPNh
Lokfn"V FkhA
fnu esa ge [kkuk cukdj lksr]s fQj jkr esa fdlh igkM+h ij >aMk yxkus dk
dk;ZØe cukrs] jkr esa viuh ;kstuk iwjh dj ykSVrsA blh izdkj Øe pyrk jgk]
fdUrq eq>s ,oa esjh VqdM+h ds HkkbZ var rd iqfyl dks pedk nsus esa lQy jgsA

3. blh chp ,d fnu gekjs usrk us eq>s cqyk;k vkSj dgk fd rqEgkjs ?kj ls ;g
i= vk;k gS] yks i= iwT; firkth ds gkFk dk fy[kk Fkk&
**rqEgkjh ekrk dh rch;r cgqr [kjkc gSA rqEgkjh ;kn esa jksrh jgrh gSA eqag
ns[kuk gks rks fpV~Bh feyrs gh igyh xkM+h ls bUnkSj jokuk gks tkvks] vkxs ethZ
rqEgkjhA**
i= i<+rs gh lUukVs esa vk x;kA lkspus yxk tkÅa fd ugha tkÅa ;fn eka
dh rch;r Bhd gksxh rks fQj vtesj Hkkx vkÅaxkA ;fn okLro esa eka l[r chekj
gS rks muds vafre n'kZu rks djuk gh gksxkA Hkkjr ekrk dh lsok ds fy, rks lkjh
ftUnxh iM+h gSA ysfdu eka ls ugha feyk rks fQj eka dgka feysxh eka xqtj xbZ
esjh ;kn eas jksr&jksrs rks D;k esjh vkRek dks pSu fey ldsxk **
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vkSj nwljs fnu usrk egksn; ls jsy fdjk;k ysdj bUnkSj tkus okyh Vsªu esa
tk cSBkA
bUnkSj ?kj ij igqapk rks eka dks Hkyh paxh ik;k] firkth us I;kj ls flj ij
gkFk Qsjk] xys yxk;kA dgk & eq>s iwjk Hkjkslk Fkk fd rqe tYn vkvksxs vkSj esjs
nksuksa cM+s HkkbZ eanean eqLdqjkrs utj vk;sA 'jkjr Hkjh eqLdku dk irk yxrs nsj
ugha yxhA tc firkth us crk;k fd csVk vyoj ls i= vk;k gS] rqEgsa ns[kus ds
fy, cqyk;k gSA vFkkZr~ esjh lxkbZ dk pØO;wg jpk;k x;k gS] eq> nks ik;s dks
pkSik;k cukus dk ;g "kM+;a= gSA
vtesj Hkkx tkus ij fdlh us ukjkth izdV ugha dhA vfirq eq>ls vf/kd
ykM+&I;kj ls O;ogkj gksus yxkA rc eq>s le>rs nsj ugha yxh] fd cdjs dks cfy
ds iwoZ ftl izdkj ltk;k f[kyk;k fiyk;k tkrk gS Bhd oSlk gh ;g u;k I;kj gSA
igys rks eSaus vyoj tkus ls gh euk dj fn;k fdUrq cgqr ncko iM+us ij eq>s ,d
;qfDr lw>h vkSj eSa vyoj tkus dks rS;kj gks x;kA lw> ;g Fkh fd vtesj vyoj
ds ekxZ eas gh rks iM+rk gSA eSa yM+dh dks ukilUn dj vtesj mrj tkÅaxkA
esjs vyoj tkus dh LohÑfr dks cM+k ljkgk x;kA esjs fy, nks tksM+ u;s
dqrs&itkes flyok;s x;sA tkrs le; firkth us le>k;k& yM+dh ds cki ls vius
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?kj dh xjhch dh lkjh ckrsa crk nsukA dguk & **ge xjhc yksx gSa] jkst dekrs
jkst [kkrs gSA u 'kknh ds fy, gekjs ikl tsoj gS] u diM+s vkSj vkSj u ckjkr ys

4. tkus ds fy, :i;s gSA fdjk;s ds >ksiM+s esa jgrsa gSA lc ckrsa lkQ&lkQ dg nsuk
dqN Hkh er fNikukA**
vkSj eSa jsyxkM+h esas cSB vyoj vk igqapkA izHkkr dh csyk Fkh] m"kk ds 'kqHk
vkxeu ls xxu e.My esa yfyek Nk xbZ FkhA bDds esa lokj gks eSa yM+dh okys ds
?kj igqapk vkSj nLrd nh] dqN gh feuVks esa fdokM+ [kksyus ds iwoZ iryh lqjhyh
vkokt esa fdlh us iwNk& dkSu gS eSaus tokc fn;k& eSa bUnkSj ls vk;k gwA rHkh
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fdokM+ [kqy x;s fdUrq fdokM+ [kksyus okyh yM+dh nkSM+dj vanj dh vksj HkkxhA
ml ef)e izdk'k esa yM+dh dh ,d >yd fn[kh t:jA xksjk xqykch jax LoLFk
nsg u yEch vkSj u fBxuhA bl Bxuh dks Bhd ls ns[k u ldk vkSj Bxk lk dqN
{k.k [kM+k jgkA fQj dejs esa tk] lkeku ,d vksj j[k dqlhZ ij cSB x;kA fnekx
ml yM+dh esa my> x;kA vkf[kj og dkSu Fkh }kj [kksyus vkbZ Fkh rks Hkkxh
D;ksa Bhd ls vanj vkus cSBus dk vuqjks/k D;ksa ugha fd;kA rHkh bl fu"d"kZ ij
igqapk fd gks u gks] ogh yM+dh gksuk pkfg,] ftlds fy, eq>s cqyk;k x;k gSA ,d
ehBh lh galh esa eSa [kks x;kA
dqN gh nsj ckn ,d O;fDr vk;k vkSj dq'ky {kse iwN Lokxr fd;kA iwNk&
;k=k eaas dksbZ rdyhQ rks ugha gqbZ eSaus lgt Hkko ls dgk dqN Hkh rks ughaA fQj
,d&nks O;fDr vkSj vk, tks eq>s ?kwj&?kwjdj ns[kus yxsA ,d nks NksVh mez ds
ckyd Hkh vk,A nwj fdokM+ksa dh vksV esas dqN vka[ks Hkh pedhA gka] os efgyk,a Fkh
tks eq>s Hkkai jgh Fkh fd yM+dk dSlk gSA ;s lc gksus okys lkl&llqj vkSj muds
ifjokjtu FksA
cf<+;k uk'rk djk;k x;kA Åij ls xeZ nw/k dk dUVj fxykl Fkek;k x;kA
eSaus fcuk fgpd IysV lkQdj fxykl [kkyh dj larks"k dh Mdkj yhA eq>s ogka
vkB fnu jksd j[kk x;kA lqcg esa cknke dk gyok] nw/k] dpksjh] lekslksa dk
uk'rkA nksigj esa dHkh [khj] dHkh ds'kfj;k Hkkr] dHkh vU; idoku] rhljs igj ds
uk'rs esa Qyksa dk <sjA vaxj] vukj] lsc] dsys] vke lHkh rks IysVkas eas dkVdj
w
ltk;s tkrs vkSj esjs lkeus j[k fn;s tkrsA eSa fcuk ladksp lc lkQ dj nsrk]
>wBu NksM+uk eq>s ilUn u FkkA vkSj ?kj ds cPpksa dks cqykdj mlesa fgLlsnkj cukus
dk <ksx jpuk eq>s vPNk ugha yxrkA jkr dks fQj iDdh jlksbZ iqM+h] feBkb;ks]a
a

5. uedhu lkx&lfCt;ksa ls Hkjh Fkkyh ykbZ tkrh vkSj >wBu u NksM+us dh dle eq>s
Fkkyh dks likV [kkyh dj nsus dks ck/; djrh ;g Øe pyrk jgkA ,dk/kckj eSaus
bUnkSj ykSVus dk ftØ fd;k rks yM+dh ds firk us dgk D;k tYnh gS dkSulk
dke vkids fcuk :dk iM+k gS vkSj eSa pqi gks tkrkA eSa ugha dg ldrk fd tc
eSa vyoj vk;k ml fnu vkSj ogka dh f[kykbZ fiykbZ pjkbZ ls esjs psgjs dk jax
fdruk D;k fu[kjkA ysfdu vkxeu ds fnu dh vis{kk ogka ls fonk gksus ds fnuksa
ds chp yM+dh ds ifjokj tuksa dk esjs izfr vkd"kZ.k vo'; dkQh c<+ x;k FkkA
'kk;n esjs [kku&iku] ckrphr O;ogkj ls eq>s oj ijh{kk esa mRrh.kZ ?kksf"kr dj fn;k
x;k FkkA
eq>ls yM+dh ds firk us iwNk& D;k djrs gks eSaus tokc nsrs vdM+ ds
lkFk dgk& ns'klsokA vtesj esa dkaxzsl dk dke djrk gwaA ,d ckj lR;kxzg djds
w
tsy Hkh tk pqdk gwA fnYyh tsy dk o.kZu Hkh lqukus ls eSa ugha pwdkA
a
dgka rd i<+&fy[ks gks bl iz'u ds mRrj esas dgk fd 6 Bh ls Mcy
s
ijh{kk nsdj 8 oh esa x;k Fkk fQj tsy pyk x;kA vc fo'kkjn vkSj esfVªd dh
ijh{kk nsuk gSA
vkSj ?kj&ifjokj dh vkfFkZd fLFkfr ds ckjs esa firkth us tks crk;k Fkk]
mlesa vkSj ued fepZ yxkdj eSaus vius ?kj dh xjhch dk fp= [khap fn;kA vf/kd
jkc vkfFkZd fLFkfr crkrs esjk ;g fopkj jgk Fkk fd yM+dh dk firk fj'rk djus ls
badkj dj eq>s u ikl dj ykSVk nsukA eq>s D;k ekywe fd ;g lkQxksbZ] esjk
fu"diV O;ogkj] ckrphr esa iSukiu o rdZiw.kZ dFku] fiatjs esa can fd;s tkus esa
lgk;d cu tkosxasA
eq>s yM+dh ds firk vius fe=ks]a ifjtuksa o Lotkfr ds cM+s yksxksa ls feykus
;kfu muls esjs p;u ds ckjs esa lykg ysus ys tkrs FksA ogka Hkh uk'rk rks eq>s
djuk gh iM+rk FkkA ;gh ugha eq>s MkWDVj ls feykus vLirky Hkh ys tk;k x;kA
tgka Hkh x;k eSa [kqydj ckrsa djrk FkkA viuh tsy ;k=k dk o.kZu vo'; djrk
ysfdu eq>s ugha yxk fd eq>s ns[kdj yksxksa us ukd Hkh p<+kbZ gks ;k esjs izfr
ukilUnxh tkfgj dh gksxhA esjs }kjk Hkkstu gte djus dh {kerk Hkh ekuks esjs
iq:"kkFkZ dh Jhcqf) esa lgk;d gh gqbZ gksxhA

6. yM+dh ns[kus okyks esa eSa gh ,dek= ugha FkkA esjs igys 10&15 O;fDr] yM+ds
;k yM+ds ds vfHkHkkod ogka gks vk, Fks] fdUrq yM+dh ds firk dks os ugha taps gksxs
;k yM+ds ;k yM+ds okyksa dks yM+dh ugha taph gksxh rHkh rks eq>s vkeaf=r fd;k
x;k FkkA tks Hkh gks] eq>s yxk fd eSa mUgsa ilUn vk x;k gwA
a
vkf[kj esjs bUnkSj ykSVus dk fnu vk gh x;kA rkaxk LVs'ku ds fy, vk
igapk] rHkh eSaus yM+dh ds pkpk ls dgk fd eSa yM+dh dks ns[kuk pkgrk gwA esjs bl
q a
dFku ls ekuks os mcy iMs+A cksys& yM+dh dks rqe D;k ns[kksxs rqe vius firkth
s
dks Hkst nsuk ogha ns[k ysx]s eSa eqag yVdk, mudh vksj ns[krk jgkA rHkh lkeku
a
rkaxs ij p<+k fn;k x;kA ekuks eq>ls dgk x;k gks fd vc vki r'kjhQ ys tkb;s]
rkaxs esa cSB fonk gksb;sA LVs'ku ij os eq>s Vªsu esa cSBkus Hkh lkFk vk;sA
esjs lkeku ds vykok yM+dh okyksa us yaxM+s cM+s&cM+s vkeksa dk Vksduk rFkk
a
feBkb;ksa dk ,d vkSj Vksduk Hkh eq>s ys tkus dks fn;kA vkSj Vsªu ds lhVh nsus ds
s
lkFk esa ml lTtu dks ueLdkj dj xkM+h esa cSB x;kA Vsªu py nh vkSj eSa yM+dh
u ns[k ikus ls mnkl fopkjks esa [kks x;kA eSaus lkspk fd eSa firkth ls dg nwa xk fd
;g laca/k eq>s ilUn ugha] 'kknh ugha d:axkA
fdUrq yM+dh okyksa us tks vke o feBkbZ ds Vksdjksa ls eq>s ekuks tdM+ fn;k
gksA yM+dh ns[kus vyoj vkrs lkspk Fkk fd yM+dh ugha taph rks bUnkSj ugha ykSVwxk
a
vkSj vtesj eas gh mrjdj dkaxzlh Lo;alsod cu jk"Vª lsok esa iqu% tqV tkÅaxkA
s
ijUrq vtesj mrjrk dSls] vke] feBkbZ ds Vksdjs tks esjs flj ij j[ks gq, Fks D;k
;s lc Lo;alsodksa dks f[kyk nwA ugha] ;g Bhd ughaA ?kj ij ifjokj okys [kk,axs rks
a
vo'; [kq'k gksxsa vkSj esjh bl tjk lh Hkwy us esjs thou dh fn'kk gh cny nhA
nks"k esjk gS ;k yM+dh ds firk dk] eSa lksprk jgk nks"k u esjk Fkk] u yM+dh ds
firk dk nks"k FkkA vke] feBkbZ;ksa ds izfr esjs yksHk dkA 'kk;n xjhch esa thou thus
dk blh lksp fopkj ds chp Vsªu vtesj ls bUnkSj dh vksj nkSM+ iM+hA
bUnkSj ?kj ykSVdj eSaus vyoj ;k=k vkSj viuh esgekufxjh dk lfoLrkj
o.kZu lqukrs lkQ dg fn;k fd eSa 'kknh ugha d:axkA f'kdk;r ;g Hkh Fkh fd eq>s
yM+dh ugha fn[kkbZ xbZ FkhA eSaus ;g Hkh dgk fd vkidks yM+dh fn[kkus dks os jkth
gSA firkth o cM+s HkS¸;k esjh ckr lqu galus yxsA dgk fd Bhd gS lc ns[k ysxsA

7. vke feBkbZ ds Vksdjs [kksys x;s vkSj ?kj esa [kqf'k;ka eukbZ xbZ] tcfd esjh mnklh o
badkjh ij fdlh us dksbZ /;ku ugha fn;kA
nks ,d eghuksa ckn vyoj ls yM+dh ds firk ds i= esjs firkJh dks izkIr
gq, ftuesa fy[kk x;k Fkk fd yM+dk geas ilUn gSA 'kknh eas tsoj diM+s ykus dh
vko';drk ugha lc ge dj nsxA ckjkr ds vkus&tkus dk lkjk [kpZ Hkh ge nsxasA
a s a
'kknh dk eqgqrZ fudyokdj fHktokus dk Hkh ftØ Fkk] mu i=ksa esaA
vkSj ,d fnu eq>s nwYgk cukdj ckjkr vyoj tk igqaphA eq>s mlh yM+dh
ds lkFk Hkkaojs ysuk iM+h ftlds lkFk eSaus fookg u djus dk fu.kZ; fy;k FkkA
ckjkr dh [kwc vkoHkxr dh xbZA dbZ&dbZ izdkj dh feBkbZ;kas ls nkorsa nh xbZA
Z
ckjkrh Hkh bl izdkj feBkbZ;ks]a nky&ckQyka]s ?kh] iqM+h] [khj ds dVksjksa ij VwVs fd
ekuksa ,slh nkor dk ;g igyk gh Lo.kZ volj gksA ;gka rd fd dqN ckjkfr;ksa dks
rks nLr yxus yxs FksA /kjkrh&ckjkrh lc esjs fookg eas [kq'k Fks] okg okg dj jgs
Fks yM+dh ds firk dhA ngst] tsoj] diM+]s feBkbZ;ka lc dqN fn;k tks yM+dh ds
firk us dgk FkkA ysfdu eq>s rks mlh yM+dh dks viuh /keZifRu cukuh iM+h] tks
eq>s fn[kkbZ ugha xbZ Fkh vkSj blhfy;s mlls C;kg jpkus ls eq>s budkjh Fkh ukjkth
FkhA
bl fookg dks flok fo/kk&fo/kku ds vkSj D;k dgk tk ldrk gS
Økafrdkjh cuus] ns'klsok esa thou vfiZr djus ds lkjs vjeku pwj&pwj gks x;sA eSa
tks cuuk] tks djuk pkgrk Fkk fookg us ml lc ij ikuh Qsj fn;kA vc flok
iNrkus ds vkSj D;k 'ks"k gS vkSj iNrkus ls Hkh gksxk D;k vkt fookg gq, 53
clUr vk;s vkSj pys x;s] fdUrq eka dh Lora=rk ds fy, ds'kfj;k ckuk eSa dgka
ifgu ldk esjs HkkX; esa fookg dk ds'kfj;k tkek tks fy[kk FkkA rHkh rks dgrk
gwa fof/k&fo/kku ds le{k ekuo cspkjk ykpkj gh rks gSA