2. Monday, August 22
Today was the first day of school. People were catching up with old
friends, and asking about their summer vacations. But not me. I
was alone. I recognized a few faces, Simon and Tracy, both bullies.
I could see some people pointing at me, and I could make out
“Raggedy Ann” in conversations. I saw a new kid walking through
the school gate. He didn’t seem to know anybody, and stood in a
corner. I wanted to be brave. I wanted to strike up a
conversation, and become friends. Now that I look back on
myself, I realize that it was stupid of me to not talk with him. It was
chance for me to make a friend! A friend! We could eat lunch
together, walk home together, there were so many things that we
could do! I wish I could be like Mary. She was so brave! After
school I was chased home by the majority of my grade, with them
chanting “Raggedy Ann” the whole time. The bad thing is, the new
kid was in the middle of all it.
3. Thursday, August 26
Today the new kid, Scott, lent me his ruler. It looks like things
are finally going my way. Tracy Stamper, one of the bigger
bullies, said that Scott shouldn’t lend me anything anymore.
I wish that I could just fit in, be normal, for once. My parents
just have to ruin that all for me by making my life miserable.
Especially with Abomination. Even if I couldn’t change my
life, I just wished that people would understand, and not
bully and tease me for something out of my control. Oh well.
At least I might have a friend in Scott. Hopefully he doesn’t
turn out to just be someone that joins in on the chasing and
name-calling. So far it isn't looking to bleak, because he
recently hasn’t been chasing me home with the rest of the
kids. I hope I make a friend.
4. Wednesday, September 1
I think I can now say that Scott is my friend. I’m not sure if I
should be glad about it though. Ever since we became
friends, the others have started treating him like an outcast.
The thing is, I’m fairly sure that if he continues to want to be
my friend, then everyone else would treat him like they do
me. I hope he decides to choose me over everyone else. Am
I being selfish? I hope not. I need to be like Mary. I need to
be brave. As for my situation with everyone else, it might be
getting worse. I’m chased home everyday now, and the
bullying in class can’t be getting any better. I wonder if I
should tell any teachers about it. Or should I tell them that
father is beating me? I don’t think I could ever bring myself
to do that.
5. Friday, September 10
Scott and me are inseparable. We take turns walking each
other home, and do as much as we can together. The
downside is that we both get bullied, but the upside to this
is that we can stick together. I’ve told Scott about my life and
my parents. Abomination, however, is still our family secret.
I think that if I tell him about Abomination, then he won’t
want to be my friend anymore. I wonder if I can one day
trust him enough. Tomorrow I’m set to meet Scott when
mother asks me to buy the groceries. This is my first step in
bravery, lying to my parents. I need to do this. I wonder why
I’m writing this into my Diary. Oh well.
6. Tuesday, September 14
Today afterschool Scott was getting beat up by the
gang. He was on the ground, and they were kicking
away, showing no signs of stopping. So I got the PE
teacher. Right away everyone scattered. I stopped by
Scott’s house. His parents are so…normal. I wish they
were mine. When I got home, I was immediately
interrogated on why I was late. I guess I have to say that
life has taken a turn for the better in the form of Scott. I
want to tell him about Abomination, but I’m scared to.
Can I just reveal such a huge secret?
7. Monday, September 20
Abomination is a little 6-year old boy. More
importantly, Mary’s 6-year old boy. How can I have
missed it all this time? Scott knows about Abomination.
I can tell he wants to help. But do I want help? Can I
betray my parents. I want to be like Mary, to be able to
disobey what my parents say. But I’m not sure if I can.
My parents are growing more and more
cautious, because they know that I have a friend in
Scott, and know that they can go to jail for both beating
me and keeping a boy in a cage in the cellar. I need to
make contact with Mary, and tell her about her kid. But
how?
8. Monday, September 27
Scott has made contact with Mary via email. I must say
that I have become different from before. Yesterday
when father asked me if I had told a certain boy
anything about our family, I yelled at him about keeping
Mary’s boy in the cellar. Mother and father were both
silent after that. Old Martha would never have done
that. The problem is, we’re moving. To another
town, somewhere far away, where I would never see
Scott again. Or Mary. My only hope is that Scott tells
Mary the details and she comes in time to pick up
Abomination. Oh Lord, please help us all.